Today is a better day.
I am able to heal.
And not miss him miserably like I did.
No shedded tears
No stalking, no last-seen check, no assumptions and conclusions, nothing.
Just accepting my present and my fate
I am grateful for life.
My weight is 67.6. I was thinking it might be 69 kg because I'm bloated like hell.
I went on a walk.
My back didn't hurt today.
I will go to sleep on time tonight.
Yesterday I received my gift from my Instagram friend, which is a Barbie-themed bottle, hairband, and clip, which is so cute, and also a dark chocolate kitkat.
Looking at that Barbie-themed bottle
Placed on my work desk
It gives me delight.
Every time I see it,
It makes me feel like I did something right in life to have that.
I was really upset about my birthday, knowing my ex didn't give me anything.
Because he gifted the best things and
I kept hoping he might give me something.
Maybe something little in pink. I loved pink growing up, but to look cool and accepted, I started liking blue and black because they're not girly. Then I met my ex, who likes pink and gracefully wears it too.
In. UK I started adoring pink, and when I came back, I fell in love with pink; it's our color of love. Now that I accept pink, it defines me with him or without him.
Over the years, he fulfilled all these girly dreams, which I never had or believed were possible.
I have always seen it happening to others.
Never to me, and my ex did all that.
A bouquet of orchids
Giving a number of gifts equal to my age—actually more
Getting me gifts on all occasions, whether it's Raksha Bandhan or Valentine's Day
He tried being my friend, family member, and more.
I kept hoping he would understand.
And provide some space too.
Anyway, all the reels I saw in the last few days reminded me of him and how he was better than them. I had it better.
Nonetheless, the facts remain the same.
You let a person be and love them.
Not the idea of them
This enlightened nature of mine
It pleases me and makes me happier.
I love me, and I deserve good things.
God has better plans.
I trust the process.
I have an amazing life.
Lucky to be me!!!
