The Jasmine Scented White Moonlight

chapter 28 - the hesitation

When Tang Yichuan woke up, he realized that he was sleeping in Ning Wan’s office, covered with a suit jacket that looked like it belonged to Ning Wan.

He covered his vaguely aching head and sat up, he then found Ning Wan sleeping on a chair next to him, with two faint haloes of blue and black under his eyes, looking very haggard.

He had no idea about what happened last night and had forgotten all about it, but Tang Yichuan knew that he was not a good drinker, plus he hadn’t had a drink for a long time since he had been disciplined by that man in the US for cigarettes and alcohol, so it was a shame that a bottle of sparkling wine of a low alcohol level made him so drunk.

Tang Yichuan guessed that he must have made a lot of trouble for Ning Wan last night and the latter as his boss must had a hard time taking care of him as a drunk, therefore he didn’t get to sleep properly.

Thinking like that, he felt some guilt in his heart and planned to go buy some breakfast and make amends with his new boss.

But Tang Yichuan got up too quickly and accidentally touched the porcelain cup on the table, which fell to the ground and broke into pieces, making a sound that woke Ning Wan from his old dream.

The face of the young man who lifted him out of the water merged a little with the long-eyed, thin-lipped face in front of him, causing Ning Wan to fall into a trance.

Tang Yichuan squatted down, trying to clean up the debris on the ground, and said a little awkwardly, “Sorry.”
Ning Wan hastily walked over and grabbed Tang Yichuan’s wrist, whispering, “I’ll do it.”

Tang Yichuan drew back his hand, sat back on the sofa and looked at his watch, realizing that it was almost eight o’clock, he stood up and bowed his head slightly, “Mr. Ning, I’m really sorry for the trouble I caused you last night, if you don’t mind, I’ll go down and buy you some breakfast? Do you prefer Chinese or Western?”

“You’re our company’s legal advisor, not a personal secretary, what are you getting breakfast for ……”

“Consider it my way of making amends!” Tang Yichuan picked up his trench coat and was about to walk towards the office door, “If you don’t let me go, I can interpret it as you not accepting my apology.”

“You …… forget it, go ahead.” Ning Wan had already picked up all the pieces and thrown them into the bin, intending to call someone to mop them up again later in case there were broken porcelain pieces that hadn’t been picked up, “I’ll just have a cup of black coffee, also, don’t use honorifics in the future when you are addressing me, obviously I am still younger than you, just call me Ning Wan.”

Tang Yichuan looked at Ning Wan with a little surprise, he remembered that Ning Wan’s attitude towards him yesterday when they first met was not so good; he didn’t know what it was that made Ning Wan change his opinion of him in one night. He thought and thought, but couldn’t peel out a trace of last night from his memory, so he had to give up and turn around to walk out.

Ning Wan stared at Tang Yichuan’s departing back, his eyes gradually sinking.

He then made a phone call to a private detective agency.
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Shen Shuyun looked at the empty bed beside him and realized that Ning Wan hadn’t come home yesterday either, so he couldn’t help but be stunned for a moment.

For some reason, Shen Shuyun always felt a sense of unease these days, but he quickly suppressed this feeling, he thought, Ning Wan must have been wrapped up in the company’s affairs and must have had a hard time these days, he couldn’t sit here and think blindly about some nonsense and burden the two of them with these unfounded emotions.

Shen Shuyun’s mood gradually calmed down, he haphazardly stuffed some bread slices he bought yesterday to pad his stomach, and then drove to work – after all, he was no longer a child, and would not immediately leave everything behind to look for Ning Wan just because he missed him, he still had to go to work, and he had to finish all the classes he had to teach.

At five o’clock, he got off work, originally wanting to go home and tell his nanny Aunt Wu to go home earlier today, and then drive to the office to see Ning Wan …… Unexpectedly, once he entered the house, a cool breeze with the smell of gin greeted him, Shen Shuyun’s heart jumped, throwing his briefcase casually to the side, changing his shoes and walking quickly inwards, asking tentatively: “Ah Wan?”

Ning Wan was adjusting the temperature of the central air conditioner in the living room, he was originally the only one in the cold room, when he heard a sudden voice, it scared his fingers, and he adjusted the temperature upwards by two degrees on the touchpad again.
“Yun ……”

Before the words were out of his mouth, a person was pressed against his back, followed by the all-too-familiar, gentle, watery voice in his ear, “Are things busy at the company? Are you encountering a lot of trouble?”

“It’s …… okay,” Ning Wan untraceably removed the hand that was encircling his waist and held it in his hand, looking back at Shen Shuyun and saying softly, “I can fix it.”

“Ah Wan, don’t try to be brave, pay more attention to your health, it’s only efficient to combine work and rest.” Shen Shuyun tilted his head and smiled, “What do you want to eat? I’ll cook today.”

Ning Wan pulled Shen Shuyun back and shook his head, “Aunt Wu made the dishes before she left, let’s just heat them up and eat them, no need to bother yourself.”

“Well …… it’s fine.” Shen Shuyun noticed that Ning Wan’s mood was a bit low, but he attributed it to Ning Wan being too tired over the company, so he thoughtfully said:
“You look tired, take a hot bath after dinner and rest early, get a good night’s sleep, hmm?”

“Okay,” Ning Wan actually couldn’t wait to go to bed earlier because he really didn’t know how to face Shen Shuyun, “Thank you, Brother Yun.”
But when he actually lay down on the bed, Ning Wan couldn’t find sleep anymore.

In the darkness of the night, he stared woodenly at the ceiling above his head, his heart filled with mixed feelings, and as soon as he closed his eyes, he would see the teenager who had rescued him from the raging cold river…

Beside him was the shallow breathing of his omega mate, heard extra clearly in the quiet night.

Ning Wan turned over and propped his head up to look at Shen Shuyun in the moonlight – he was sleeping soundly, his eyelashes fluttering slightly, the moonlight pouring over his skin, scattering a faint halo of light, smooth and moist like cow’s milk.

They were so close, so close that their pheromones were entwined, so close that they seemed to be able to touch each other as soon as they reached out, yet Ning Wan suddenly felt as if there was an unbridgeable gap between them.

In this world, how could there be people with such similar pheromones?

He and Shen Shuyun were already married, he was Shen Shuyun’s alpha, and even if there were any past events, they should be forgotten over the years, allowing them to remain a mere memory.

But Ning Wan couldn’t do it.
He had thought about that man from his past for so long, searched for him for so long, how could he just say he could let it go?

The young man who saved him had long since become his bone-deep obsession. If it wasn’t for this coincidence, he probably wouldn’t have pursued Shen Shuyun in the first place, let alone married him.

It was wrong, their relationship was simply wrong from the start, everything was wrong.

The person beside him seemed to sense his movement and leaned towards his arms with a murmur; Ning Wan subconsciously stretched out his hand and took the person into his arms.

The fact is that Ning Wan is also unable to let go of Shen Shuyun’s hand and separate, after all, they have a three-year marriage, people are not grass, Shen Shuyun’s kindness to him over the years, his hundred accommodations to his life style, he is not unaware of, so he feels even more torn about this, he really does not know how to choose.

“Brother Yun …… what should I do ……?”

He closed his eyes in agony and held the person in his arms a little tighter, as if that would give him the perfect answer, an answer that would not hurt anyone.