Book Two in the "Alcaraz Duology"
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐇𝐢𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐅𝐢𝐱𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧
Catalina Alcaraz is a single mother with a past that she doesn't wish to revisit. She has managed to become a successful doctor and to create a life of her own desp...
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It's been exactly one week.
I've been hesitating on ending things with Silas because the guilt gets me every time. I know I'll feel worse if I stay with him any longer, therefore I know I have to do it soon. I was hesitant about being with him from the start and I shouldn't have allowed things to progress. The temptation of him got the best of me and now I may only hurt him.
I've actually been making an effort to keep my distance from him, but he still manages to get me alone with him somehow.
I've been searching for a home because I find it intolerable to live or even sleep in my house. I can't look at it the same after seeing all the bodies and blood that were dropped and splattered everywhere. I only step foot in it to get clean clothes and other necessities that Orion and I may need.
Silas had insisted that we stay with him in his apartment, but he's done enough, and I'll only feel worse continuing to accept his help. I had planned to find an apartment in the meantime, but Lucia basically forced us to stay with her after finding out
We're at a restaurant now.
Lucia invited Orion and I to join her, my brother-in-law, and Dahlia. I accepted assuming it would be just us, but I was mistaken. I wasn't made aware of the fact that Silas, his parents, and my parents would be joining us. It doesn't bother me, but I just really want to continue keeping my distance from my father and Silas.
Actually, I had intended to meet with Silas to finally put an end to things after the dinner. He's noticing my distance and the fact that I barely allow him to kiss me or touch me. He will start asking questions soon because I can tell that it bothers him the same way it bothers me. I yearn for him, but something prevents me from being with him. I have some psychological problems. I am aware of them and the fact that they are damaging. Although I adore Silas and he is a good man, I don't feel good enough for him, and I find it incredibly hard to believe that he could ever love me.
Orion and I greet everyone. I don't look at or even say a word to my father, and Silas is the last person I greet. His gentle brown eyes haven't left me since the moment I walked through the restaurant doors. He gives me a soft smile, and I feel like I can die from how beautiful he is.
I reluctantly return the hug he gives me. He then tries to kiss me, but I turn my face away from him and he ends up kissing my cheek instead. That clearly bothers him, but he doesn't say anything about it. I give him a faint smile before I go to sit at the table with my son.
Domenic is going to sit beside me since Elisa is seated on the opposite side. However, after a simple stare from his son, he chuckles and sits across his wife instead.
Silas takes the seat beside me, and I can only concentrate on is his strong scent of cologne. The scent floods all my senses, making me want to back out of the breakup, but I fight the thoughts away.
I divert my attention by looking at Orion instead. He has already begun to study his menu. A melancholic sensation suddenly swarms my heart all the way down to the pit of my stomach as I stare at my son. It's a strange sensation I've been experiencing recently every time I look at him. It has also happened to me a few times with Silas. I don't know the cause of it, but I simply sense a profound type of sadness that makes me want to suddenly burst into tears. Each time it occurs, I give him a big, tight hug and I remind him that I love him. Then, my heart feels like it might burst and bleed.
