❝𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐦 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐮𝐩 𝐭𝐨 𝐧𝐨 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝.❞
Jupiter Black has been isolated from the outside world her entire life up until the age of thirteen. During a duel with her mother, Jupiter tragically witnesses her death and flees from...
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𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 16
I STARE UP AT THE STONE CEILING, DAZED. I'm exhausted and my whole body is aching, especially my chest. My throat is burning and I swallow as an attempt to soothe it. I take in raspy breaths and look around at my surroundings with cloudy eyes.
I'm in the hospital wing. I try and push myself to sit up and I can feel a pressure on my left thigh. I look down and see a mop of dark brown hair lying there. He flinches awake and stares up at me with squinted eyes. "Jupiter?" Harry whispers out and rubs his eyes as he sits up.
I stare at him with a frown and he looks at me with pain written all over his face. "Why would you do that?" His voice cracks and his green eyes well with tears. "What?" I whisper out and tears slip from his eyes. "Why would you try and kill yourself?" I turn my eyes away from him, swallowing.
"You shouldn't care. It's better that way." I mumble out the words, refusing to meet his gaze. "Of course I care, Jupiter. I care so much about you, and you tried to die. You wanted to die, why would you think that wouldn't bother me?" He's sobbing now. My heart is aching and I swallow harshly, trying to force everything away.
"You need to not care about me Harry. It's the only way you can be truly safe." My eyes have welled with tears and I look around us before casting us inside of a bubble of air, making it impossible for anyone to listen in. His eyes are wide and his lip quivers as he looks at me.
"I'm a Death Eater, Harry. And no one stops being a Death Eater. I've hurt people— I've killed people. And you will only get hurt if you still care for me." His eyes are wide in shock. I still care for him, I love him. But he can't care anything for me. I need to keep him safe, it's why I'm doing this all.
"Remember the prophecy, Harry. He needs to know I'm on his side, it's the only way I can truly protect you. And I don't care what happens to me in the process, I will always keep you safe." His eyes are unrecognisable.
"You've killed people?" His voice is quiet and I take in a sharp breath, nodding my head. "Yeah." My eyes are tired and numb. "And I'll keep killing people, I'll do anything to make myself trusted. I know what I need to do, and you will get hurt. So you need to not care about me anymore." The words are daggers cutting me internally as I speak them.
I don't want to say this, but I need to. "You need to hate me Harry, you need to not care about me at all." He's quiet as he stares at me. "Or you'll get hurt. Because I'm unrecognisable now. I've become the monster I tried so hard to keep hidden, and there's no turning back now." My eyes leak and I wipe them away, tugging my hand back from him.
"You need to forget about me-" he cuts me off. "I can't." His voice is torn and pained and he swallows harshly. "I could never forget you Jupiter- I... I love you, Jupe. I can never forget you." My eyes are wide at his words and my lip quivers. My throat dries out and tears slip from my eyes.
"What?" I whisper out and he interlocks our fingers again. "I love you, Jupiter." He's staring deep into my eyes and my heart pounds within me. I love you too, is what I want to scream and shout out. I want to run into his embrace, I want to be with him. I want to love him and for him to love me too. But that can't happen.
"You can't, Harry. You can't love a monster." I say and cut him off before he can speak again. "You need to not care about me, you need to. Or you will get hurt. Because if they know we both care about each other... they'll hurt me to get to you and hurt you to hurt me too." He places his hand on my cheek, brushing his hand over the skin.
"They've succeeded then. Because they pushed you to your breaking point. You tried to die and I did nothing to stop you. I did nothing to try and help you, I ignored you when I should've talked to you-" I gently cut him off. "It's okay, you should've done that." I move back the sleeve of my top, showing him my scarred over mark.
"I won't try to kill myself again, if that's what you're worried about." Not yet, anyway. His green eyes move to look at my tattoo. The snake moves on my skin. "I can't be saved, Harry." I mumble out and lift my gaze to look at him.
"You need to let me go. Or you will keep getting hurt because of me." I cover up the mark again and carefully move his hand from my cheek.
"You're not a monster, Jupiter." Harry tells me and I let out a slight scoff. "Yes, I am." I close my eyes and Project all of the deaths because of my hands. I show him what I have done, the monster I have become. I'm trying to scare him, and I know it's working.
I stop projecting and undo the bubble of air. Harry stands up and walks away from me, I can't blame him. I hope he realises that there's no saving me now.
