Warming the Ice Queen's Tears

Epilogue

I was already conscious but kept my eyes shut. My side felt heavy so I moved my hand to clutch it which I realized was a stupid move. I groaned in pain the moment my hand got contact with my bandaged side. Shit, it hurts. Another stupidity was when I opened my eyes as I hissed in pain. I liked it when I saw people in pain. Every groans and cries. But not when it was coming out from me. Eventually, I laughed the pain off.

What a damn place. Why is it so bright?

I calmed myself down and think. Sa amoy at itsura ng lugar nasa ospital ako. Why? Because that bastard shot me and what I hated the most was that I let myself be shot. Why the hell did I catch that fvcking bullet? Ang daling hayaan nalang 'yon na tamaan siya. I should've let her die. I didn't care about her. I just used her to get close to that bastard for entertainment. I was really bored in with life and that blasted girl was like a game center. Using her would benefit me and that bastard's now dead. Akala ko matatapatan ako ni Nicholas or Ben. But then again, I couldn't find anyone to play on my level. They couldn't gave me the thrill and they needed to die. Unfortunately, I wasn't the one who took the kill. Thanks to that bastard brother of her.

I remember something...

It was also in my plan to kill him right after he pushed me and got hurt on the stairs. It maybe a single, simple thing pero...

Hindi ako madaling makalimot.

He owed me not only once but twice. He took the life I wanted. Unfinished business was not my thing so what so what happened?

Have I... gone soft?

Ha! Soft? Me? The only soft about me was my body, especially my breasts. Men I'd been with said so. I could even kill the first person who would enter this room without second thoughts.

In fact, I will have a little play with the first person who'd enter this room. Let's see...

I carefully sat down a bit and looked around to search for anything I could use for the game. A slight smile coming to my lips. A smile that everybody thought was sweet and captivating.

Its funny how people could be stupid to thought about beautiful things but this smile was a start of something horrible for them in my part.

The first thing I found was an injection resting on a metal tray on top of a white, little side cabinet. May katabi itong maliit na babasaging bote.

What could it be?

Kinuha ko ang bote ay binasa ang label. Sedative.

Maybe they're planning on shutting me down temporarily if I would trash the place down. They think that I'm that harmful? How thoughtful of them.

I smiled for the incoming fun. I always had fun for things like this. Isipin man ng iba na weird pero ito na ang nakasanayan ko. I learned to be like this thru the things I experienced. With those, I realized that people always hurt each other whether it's between family, friends or maybe between the people they know less. Sabi nila, the more you love the person, the more it pains. But that's bullshit.

The more you let your emotions surface, the more it controls you.

Did you think that it didn't connect? That it didn't make sense?

Well congratulations. Your mind's so narrow like a sewing needle's hole or a virgin girl's hole at thirties.

Kapag nakontrol ka na ng emosyon, that's when it pains more. You wanted to gain back the control. To be on your rational self but you couldn't.

Kahit magprotesta ang isip mo na mali ang nararamdaman mo... na mali ang ginagawa mo... kapag naunahan ka na ng emosyon, talo ka na.

Like feeling jealousy over your sister who you thought was loved more by your parents. Nasaksihan ko na'yan.