Warming the Ice Queen's Tears

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

A Week Before the Event

 

Aiden

“Why’d you do that Aiden? I couldn’t believe you would do such thing. You and Azel.” She asked in a low voice. By the way she asked me, I know what she’s talking about. It’s about the things we did to that trash. Tss! Nagsumbong siguro siya. She couldn’t even keep her mouth shut.

Kasalanan niyang lahat. Kasalanan niya kung bakit nawala ang mga magulang namin. If she didn’t acted like a spoiled brat things would be so much better now. Pero hindi at dahil sa ginawa niyang yon hindi ko siya mapapatawad.

“Because it was her fault. It was her fault I lost Mom and Dad. I will never forgive her. She should be the one dead and—”

*pak*

Nagulat ako nang masampal ako ni Auntie Therese. Unang beses niya ko mapagbuhatan ng kamay at isang mabait at maalagain na tao si Auntie Therese.

“You’re blaming her? You’re blaming a six-year old child for an accident. How could you?” I saw how disappointed she was while looking at me. Napayuko nalang ako dahil sa sobrang kahihiyan.

“What’s happening in here?” Biglang dumating si Uncle Ben at sinusubukang pakalmahin si Auntie Therese.

“You’re weeping for your lost but you’re not the only one who lost them. Alonna also lost them and you didn’t even try to understand her. You weren’t even there but I was and it was an accident. Every single day she’s blaming herself for your parent’s death and every single day she was asking about how you were but all you did was put salt all over her wound and hurt her more all over again. You pretended to care and love her. It was all just an act. You of all people. Her brother!”

“I—I’m sorry.”

“You shouldn’t be saying that to me. Say that to Alonna.” She said before storming out of Alonna’s room and Uncle Ben followed her.

Mabilis akong pumasok sa kwarto ko. I was facing back and forth in front of my bed thinking all the mess I did.

“F*CK!!” Napaupo nalang ako sagilid ng kama and buried my face on my hands.

Binalikan ko lahat ng ginawa ko sakapatid ko. Napahilamos ako nang mapag-isip sip kong tama nga si Auntie Therese. Hindi lang ako ang nawalan at nagluluksa hanggang ngayon. Nakalimutan kong may kapatid ako at laking pagsisisi ko. Nakalimutan kong hindi lang ako ang nasasaktan dahil sa mga nagyari. Dalawa kami ng kapatid ko.

Hindi ko dapat ginawa iyon. I should’ve blame her for our loss and be a brother I needed to be for her but instead, I made sure to make her life miserable and I forced Azel to do the same.

Napakalaki kong tanga. Ang dami kong kagaguhang ginawa sa kanya. I regretted the things I’ve done to her. I hurt her in every chance I get. Tinanggap niyang lahat ‘yon at hindi man lamang ako ginantihan kahit isang beses. Hindi ko siya nakitaan na nagalit siya sa’kin o tinignan ako ng masama.

I paid her love with pain and I regretted it so damn much.

Tumayo ako at kinuha ang isang personalized birthday card sa drawer.

Happy Birthday my dear brother. I love you.

Your little sister,

Al

She gave this to me when I was seven. Kinakain ng konsensya ko ang buong pagkatao ko ngayon. Ngayon ko lang narealized ang mga nagawa ko sa kanya.

“I’m sorry Al.” I whispered as tears staring to leak out from my eyes.