Love Me Harder Daddy

KABANATA 54

Kabanata 54

             AFTER a few days of Zero staying at home, his father became more caring and sweet. He was the one who cooked breakfast, and when he got home from work, he was surely cooked their dinner.

Before that, his father always brought him food as a gift. Donuts, milk tea, pizza, fried chicken, fries, steak and many more.

If he and his father didn't know each other, Zero would think his father was flirting with him.

It was hard for Zero to say and assume things. If his father was being affectionate just because they were father and son or something more? Are the food gifts he was giving him because he was his son or is there some other reason?

He doesn't want to assume things. Especially, he is his father. If they weren't acquaintances or relatives, he might think differently.

Because of his father's sweetness, Zero felt closer to him. Here he was again. Stuck! He was once again stuck in his love for his father, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't stop it.

Here he was again.. starting to love his adoptive father. He felt that there was something special in what his father showed him, in the actions he took.
 
Napapa isip tuloy si Zero. What if may gusto na din sa kaniya ang ama? What if mahal na rin siya nito tulad ng pagmamahal niya rito na matagal na niyang tinatago?

Tinuktukan ni Zero ang ulo sa pag-iisip. Masyado na siyang nag assume ng mga bagay na malabong mangyare. Siguro na o-overwhelm lang siya sa mga actions ng ama.

Naka upo si Zero sa sofa habang nanonood ng palabas. Nanonood ba? O naka bukas lang ang TV habang nakatingin siya roon ngunit malayo ang paspas ng kaniyang isip?

Tch!

"Hey, son." pag tawag ng amang kararating lang galing trabaho. Matamis ang ngiti nito.

Nahihiya man si Zero ngunit binati niya rin ito pabalik.

Tumuon ang kaniyang tingin sa bibit ng ama. Another gifts?

"For you." inabot ng ama ang dala nito at tinanggap naman iyon ni Zero.

Laking gulat na lamang ni Zero ng halikan siya ng ama sa pisngi na ngayon lamang nangyare.

"Magbibihis lang ako. Pagkatapos magluluto na rin para makakain na tayo."

Naka alis na ang kaniyang ama ngunit si Zero tila nabato sa kaniyang kinatatayuan.

Kapag kuwan na sapo niya ang pisnging nilapatan ng labi ng kaniyang ama. Hindi mawari ang milyong-milyong boltahe na kung anoman ang kumuryente sa buong katawan ni Zero.

Ramdam niya ang puso na parang mababaliw sa sobrang bilis ng pag-tibok niyon.

Anong nangyare ngayon-ngayon lang?

Did his father kissed him on his cheek?

After processing everything. Mabilis ang naging pamumula ng pisngi ni Zero. Nag-iinit ang kaniyang mukha.

Agad siyang tumakbo sa kuwarto dala ang regalong bigay ng ama.

Sapo-sapo niya ang dibdib ng makarating doon. Inilapag niya ang bitbit sa ibabaw ng kama at napahilamos ng mukha gamit ang palad.

Fuck! Para saan ang halik na iyon? Bakit siya hinalikan ng ama? Ano? Shit! Shit!

Hindi man makikita sa pang labas na anyo ang kilig na nararamdaman ni Zero, ngunit subuking silipin ang panloob niya. Tila mga batang nagtatampisaw ang dugo niya sa tubig ulan.

Kapag kuwan ay gusto niyang magtatalon sa sobrang tuwa.

It sounds weird and cringed. What the hell?