A Loveless Alliance

Chapter-70 [Sweet Pain]

MYRA'S POV

"Did he say anything?"

I had to stop Siddharth, freezing him with a light hold around his wrist and his steps instantly halted.

He looked enraged but had it caged in pretty well, but I knew only a word, a gesture, a mere signal from me would ignite this fire larger than tameable.

And, Siddharth, for as far as I knew him, would take this fire, sprint and pounce on that man like an animal, even though he had nothing to do with my silence as the man in front of me thought so.

So, I voiced out the words quickly. "No, Raj said nothing." We had only talked about a few incidents from the school before I started about Siddharth and never stopped till he came.

Siddharth let out a sigh and took a step closer. "Toh phir kya hua hai?" His eyes were confused but the whole body was in action.

[Then what has happened?]

It felt like the very next word out of my mouth would face the consequences of his raised breaths, deep frown, those narrowed, worried sick eyes; and those consequences would be far, far away from good. I knew that as a fact.

I let out a soft breath, and his arm hardened under my touch. My gaze shifted to the ground for a second before I lifted it again but didn't match his piercing stare.

"Do you think I will do well tomorrow?" My voice came out meek, like an amateur about to start their first day of college, and I hated it.

"Huh?" That sound slipped off his mouth involuntarily. Siddharth blinked a few times before a smile of disbelief took over his lips.

My face didn't waver, I didn't wave my hand and laughed like I was just joking because I wasn't.

Yes, I received the confirmation letter but the confidence to stand amidst the world class experts of my field and share my presentation wasn't enclosed in it, no matter how bad I needed it to be.

There would be many ace dentists, more experienced than me; People for whom such seminars are as mundane as just another day at the clinic,

And I will have to stand between them, let myself be the subject to their critical gaze while delivering the research I had worked my butt off for months or years if we count from the scratch; whilst also hiding that I had been dreaming about a platform like this, in my back pocket.

So..yeah..hell..yeah..I was losing my mind.

Seeing the seriousness on my face, Siddharth's smile fell into nothingness. "Wait..are you serious?"

His eyes narrowed, as if it was hard to credit that I could be doubting myself too.

Understandable though, it must be hard for someone who had only ever harboured blind faith in my capabilities to digest that I was scared now that the time to live my dream was finally near.

I tried to say something but couldn't. The spiraling thoughts about tomorrow's event were too consuming, it made my gut twist.

Instead a whine almost escaped my mouth but somehow I held it and looked away, away from the eyes, which reflected what I wished I had in me, unshakeable faith, angry at my own self.

What was the deal with human beings? Wanting to run away when you are just one step away from everything you ever prayed for?

The frown on my face flickered under the gentle touch of two hands on my shoulders. It was puzzling how the same contact can burn and soothe you at the same time.