I Adore You

chapter46:Aftertaste

Sean and ariana broke up a few months ago and Sean really did not expect them to break up. Every is suffused with remembering that moment. He can't seem to beat that moment, no matter what he does that message is always on replay in his head. He thaught that they were okay, they may not have spoken that much the week prior but her thought it was because their hectic schedules.

So getting a call from Joan and Frankie asking him to come over and talk to Ariana, he had mixed feelings about it. Of course he saw the video of her and her back up dancer and was shocked by what he saw and in the statement she put out as an 'apology' he just had to shake his head she didnt even own up to what she did.

So standing in front of Ariana's house waiting for someone to open the door he started second guessing he decision to come and talk to Ariana for them. He didn't know how he would feel about seeing her again.

Joan opened the door and ushered Sean ruining his chance to change his mind and turn back

Re-rewind Friday night, never forget it
How you let me go
No more lies I'll be fine I know where I'm headed
Probably should've known

And now you're gonna say, "Pretty, please forgive me."
Fool me once, told you twice you're gonna regret it
Now you're all alone, yeah

They told Sean that Ariana was in her room and for him to go up and talk to her, he knocked on the door and got a muffled come in from Ariana from the other side of the door.

Sean opened the door to find Ariana sitting on her bed flipping through channels. Ariana turned her attention to what she was expecting to be someone coming to try and talk to her about how she's been acting different lately. But what she sure as hell wasn't expecting was to see Sean standing in door way.

"What are you doing here?"Ariana finally asked breaking tg e silence growing between them

"You mom called me and asked if I would try and talk to" Sean told her

"Look I dont-" before she could finish Sean interrupted her

"No you look Ariana," Sean said walking in her room and closing the door "I sure as hell don't want to be here or within 20 yards of you, I'm doing this as a favour for your mom and your brother, because right now you disgust me." Ariana was stunned by his words he has never talk to her in that way

it's hard for Sean to imagine the idea of meeting a new person. Going through the same routine. Saying the same phrases he's now said many times: the big statements, the grand revelations about his childhood and character. The cautious revealing of insecurities. He's said them already, and they sit now in the minds of those people who are out living their lives he has no access to anymore and the girl in front of him. Awhile ago, this was tremendous; now, the idea of facing a new person and speaking the same core sentences seems like a mistake, an error of integrity. Surely it is not good for his own mind to make himself into a speech like that. The only major untouched field of discussion will have to do with this feeling, this tiredness, this exact speech. He really thaught Ariana could have been the last person he had to do that with, but he was wrong and Ariana hurt him.

Turns out that no one can replace me
I'm permanent, you can't erase me
I'll help you remember me
One more kiss is all it takes
I'll leave you with the memory
And the aftertaste

Close your eyes, you can't hide
Try to forget me, but I'm everywhere
I'm the smell on your sheets
you weren't ready when you left me there

That's what Sean wanted to do, he wanted to hurt Ariana he really did, but he couldn't, Ariana didn't look herself. She looked like someone else she changed from the last time he saw her she looked smaller like she had lost weight, was that even possible she was already so small. The way her people told Sean she was acting made him think it sounded so familiar but he couldn't but his finger in it. The secrets, the constant outburst,

He was bought out of his thoughts when he felt Ariana's hands touch him.

It brought back memories, good memories of them together. Sean looked at Ariana and noticed thaf she was all natural, it was rare that he would see her with no make up or extensions in her and her hair straightened. What happened next was not what Sean or Ariana were expecting to happen that day

He couldn't help but touch her and Ariana couldn't help but melt at his touch. Sean raised his hands up to Ariana's hair and tangled his fingers in it. He put his head in her neck and am her, she always smilled so good he misses the way she would leave her sent on his pillow he misses her smell.Ariana raised up his shirt and started to feel Sean's body. He was in a total daze and all he cared about was how good it felt. Ariana pulled Sean by his shirt and him to the bed before clothes started coming over off left and right.

Ariana slowly ran her hand over Sean's crotch. That did it for him.

He positioned himself right behind her and planted his hands on either side of her hips as she was on all fours. He found the right spot and pushed into her body. She exerted a painful gasp mixed with ecstasy

And now you're gonna say, "Pretty, please forgive me." Yeah
Bet it hurts, it gets worse, you know nobody, said it would be fair, oh

Turns out that no one can replace me
I'm permanent, you can't erase me
I'll help you remember me
One more kiss is all it takes
I'll leave you with the memory
And the aftertaste

Sean rushed putting on pants then shirt. He could believe that he just had sex with Ariana the girl that broke up with him over a message and refused to talk to him about it or give him a reason why, the same girl that was seen kissing on one of her back up dancers a few days before. He was just supposed to come here and maybe get some answers why she's been acting the she has lately.

He quickly left her room with a word and down the stairs to find her Joan, Frankie and some other waiting for him to tell them if he got any answers out of her.

"I talk to to her and tried to tell that she's changing and everything angle that you guys were a little worried but I didn't get any answers sorry." Sean told them they told them it was alright and that it was a long shot anyway, Sean quickly said his farewells and left the Grande house

And now there's something in your way
'Cause you threw it all to waste
And you wonder if you could take back what you did that day
And it hurts, 'cause...

Turns out that no one can replace me
I'm permanent, you can't erase me
I'll help you remember me
One more kiss is all it takes
I'll leave you with the memory
And the aftertaste