I Adore You

Chapters 50: Tell me what to do

30 days later

Today was the she came back. Ariana came back to her home in L.A. new and refreshed. She's been gone for 30 days to rid her systems of the drugs she was taking and find herself again. It was a well needed time to herself. And there was only really one person she needed to thank for that.

Sean.

If it wasn't for him she would have probably gotten addicted to what Ricky was giving her. He career could have crashed and burned. Anything could have happened she could have ruined herself. She didn't even want to imagine what it would have been like if the media got a hold of it.

She was just grateful that Sean hit her with the door that day, because if he didn't she didn't want to know what he life would be like right now. Still holding in her dark secrets and the pain that came with them. She couldn't be grateful enough that Sean sat there and held her as she cried her eyes out and poured her pained heart put to him, even when she said something that had him stiffening up he still sat there his arms around her.

Flash back

" No I'm not leaving. You need help, you may not want it right now but I'm going to help you anyway." Sean said walking closer to Ariana

"No, No! Get out!" Ariana yelled

"Ariana, c'mon." Sean said softly as he wrapped his arms around her

"No! No, no. Get off me." Ariana struggled to get out of Sean's grasp

"It's okay Ariana,  I'm  here, I'm here for you." Sean told her squeezing her tight in his grasp

"No, No you don't understand." Ariana said as she was growing tired of fighting Sean

"Then make me understand." Sean softly "I want to help you, Ariana I'm here for you, so make me understand, make me understand why you decided to start taking drugs and ruining your life." 

Ariana stopped fighting  Sean and a sob escaped her as tears started rolling down her face.

"I'm sorry!" Ariana sobbed into Sean's chest

"What are you sorry for?"  Sean asked rubbing her back

"I'm so sorry! I don't  why I did it!" Ariana sobbed to Sean once again

"What?  What did you do?" Sean asked curious

"It's just that when I found out I was pregnant, I didn't  want to cancel the tour I wasn't ready to be a mom" Ariana said

"Wait? What your pregnant?" Sean asked

"I was so selfish" Ariana continue to  ignoring Sean questions "I should've  stopped the tour, I knew that what I was putting my body through was bad for it but I didn't  stop I didn't And then it died it died inside of me because I was so selfish! I killed and innocent baby because  I didn't want to cancel  the stupid tour" Ariana sobbed to Sean

"We could have been a happy little family. I wish we were that happy little family right now. I wish that I told you I was pregnant with your baby and you convinced me to stop touring. But I didn't and I killed the baby. Then I just wanted to feel better I just wanted to feel loved  I wanted to feel good but I didn't after I slept with Justin it just made me feel worse."

"Then Ricky, he saw my pain it understood I was in pain and gave me something that took that pain away, he gave me my pain reliever." Ariana told Sean the tears wet on her cheeks as she drifted  off into a slumber

Sean put Ariana in her bed and covered her with a blanket before going over to her purse and pouring the pills into the toilet and flushing them. Sean looked at Ariana sleeping and rubbed his hands over his face before leaving her room and going down to talk to Joan.

"Joan," Sean softly said walking into the kitchen where Joan "You need to listen closely to what I'm going to say, you may not like or believe what I'm going to here at first but what I'm saying is the truth." Sean told her and Joan stopped what she was doing to really listen to what Sean was going  to tell her and nodded  her head for Sean to continue.

"Ariana..."

End of flash back

"Sweat heart," Joan said opening the door to Ariana's  room

"Mhmm" Ariana hummed in response

"There's someone here to see you." Joan said and opened the door some more to reveal  Sean standing next to her

"Hey Ari," Sean said walking into her room

"Hey." Ariana said softly sitting up in her bed

"You should be doing something productive like catching up on Empire." Sean joked with her

"Oh I'm caught up, that new character  they added I have to say I love him."Ariana said

"What's  not to love?" Sean said

"I didn't know you were  into acting." Ariana  said

"Eh you know I got the talent why not share it right." Sean said

"Thank you" Ariana  told Sean

"It's no problem you, if I got flaunt it, I'm thinking of maybe going after an acting career." Sean joked

"No not about you sharing your amazing hidden talent of acting but thanks for everything, thank you for staying and helping when I fought you and pushed you thank you for being you." Ariana said getting up from her bed and walking over to Sean to give him a hug

"I saw what  drugs did to people and I would never ever want thank to happen to you or anybody else." Sean told her

"Sean I know I've  done some messed up things in the  pass year, things that probably  really hurt you but I want to know that just maybe you could forgive me and give me a second chance. While I was away I had a lot of time to really think clearly  and I realized that I messed up something  that was probably  one of the best things that's  happened to me." Ariana told Sean

Sean hasn't seen Ariana since 30 days ago when he stood in her room listening to her tell him her secrets that pained her heart, her telling her that she was pregnant  with his child and miscarried, he telling him that she cheated on him with 2 different guys. So how was he supossed  to just forget all of that and forgive her and give her a chance to hurt him again. From all the girl Sean's dated Ariana is the one that hurt him the most.

"I... I don't  know, Ariana"