lost in confusion ↣ luke brooks/beau brooks

Chapter Six

My eyes fluttered open to the sound of my alarm, still ringing with the sound of 'Set This World On Fire'.

I hope to god to boys don't hear it any time soon, because honestly, I have no plans on changing it, the vocals are good.

I climbed out of my bed, gaining balance on my legs. I walked over to my wardrobe to grab out some clothes and hop into the shower. I chose a white bikini with blue and purple floral patterns, with a pair of tribal denim shorts and a loose crop top to wear over them, because we were going to the beach today.

I grabbed a towel and got into the shower and washed every fibre on my body. I change into my clothes and did my hair. I didn't bother straightening it because I would be swimming but I did want to look decent, I mean, I'm going to the beach with the Janoskians.

I decided to wear my hair down in its natural waves. I grabbed my phone and my sunnies and headed down stairs. I skipped breakfast because I didn't want to bload before going to a beach in a bikini.

I grabbed my phone a texted Luke that I was on my way to his house. I grabbed my house key and left the house and made my way up to the Brooks house.

The heat was blazing, way hotter than Miami was, but I guess I was used to it, Miami did have really bad heat waves at times.

While I was walking to the Brooks' house, I let my thoughts race through my head.

'You love Luke'

'No you don't your just in shock'

'Luke hates you, he's faking'

'But he kissed you'

'You're ugly why would he like you, fat shit'

These thoughts were bouncing off all corners of my mind. They made me feel insecure, worthless, something I never wanted to feel like.

I clutched my stomach, feeling insecure about my bare stomach. I felt tears prick at my eyelids, but I bit my lip to stop myself from letting them fall, it was really nothing I wasn't used to, I'd always been insecure about my body, but now I'm hanging around the 5 boys I love more than anything, and that makes me feel so much more insecure about my looks.

I reached their house. I wiped away the almost fallen tears as I walked up the small path leading to their door. I knocked on the door to find Jai in only boxers answer it.

'Hi- oh shit- uhh hi Kelsey', he said, his faced going a shade of pink as he hid his body behind the door.

'Hi, not ready yet I see?', I said giggling a little.

'Uh yeah, uhh Lukes in the living room if you wanna sit with him', Jai said.

'Ok, sure', I said, a smile creeping apon my face.

Jai quickly ran upstairs before I could even catch a second glimpse of him. I walked into the living room to see Luke clutching his phone. I crept in and took a seat beside him, careful not to disturb him. He looked up to see me, as a smile grew apon his face.

'Hi Kels', Luke said smiling.

'Heyyy, so when do we leave?', I said.

'Eh, whenever the boys are ready, nice outfit, you look really pretty Kelsey', Luke said, looking into my eyes.

'Okay, and thankyou', I said, giving him a hug.

He sat staring at me for a little while, as I looked down at my hands, letting more thoughts race through my mind, I felt his eyes burning into me.

I know it's early but I know I do have feelings for him, I always did, but now it's real, but he'd never want me that way, he only compliments me to make me less insecure I guess, he's always been the sweet kind, even when he doesn't mean it.

But then again, I loved how sweet Luke was, but sometimes he was so confusing, I could never wrap my head around it. Maybe when he was sweet to people he did mean it? Or maybe just to spare people's feelings. Those possibilities crossed my mind so many times. Did he mean it, did he not?

That's why it hurt to fall in love with him, because I didn't know if he was just showering me with compliments because he really meant it, or just to spare my feelings and make me happy.

It hurt, because I didn't know whether to believe him or not.

It hurt because I didn't know if he liked me or he was just trying to friend-zone me.

It hurt because I put him first, before everything, yet he wouldn't do the same back.

It hurt because all of this confusion built up in my mind because of one boy and a few compliments, that's what hurt.

I snapped from my thoughts eating away at my mind.

'Hellooooo? Ready to go?', Luke said waving his hand infront of my face.

'Oh , yeah, sure', I said, here we go again.

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Chapter six!

SORRY IT'S SO DEEP, I was really trying to get Kelsey's emotional side come out, to parts you didn't know about her, and her insecurities and anxiety.

I hope you guys liked this chapter because it took me a lot of detail etc to write it:)

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