lost in confusion ↣ luke brooks/beau brooks

Chapter Thirty Seven

Today. The day I go to the Brooks household and apologise for everything. Possibly the day it could all go back to normal and become my Melbourne fairytale all over again. A smile creeped upon the corners of my lips. I crawled out of bed and walked towards the bathroom. I grabbed a towel and turned the shower on, stepped inside and began to clean my body and hair. Once I had finshed, I wrapped the towel around my body and made my way back into my room and started to flick through my wardrobe. I wanted to look good today, even though I wasn't going to the Brooks house until after school, but Luke would be at school and I do want to impress him. I finally decided on a pair of stripy white and light blue shorts with a light blue crop top that hung slightly above my belly button. I chose a pair of black distressed combat boots to match, and left them quite loosely laced. Once I had changed into my chosen clothes, I quickly started on my hair. I blow dried it before straightening roughly, so it was slightly wavy but a messy straight, like tumblr models always have. It actually suited my hair quite well in all honesty. 

I then decided on my makeup. I put on a light layer of foundation, without some conealer under my eyes to brighten them from the dark rings beneath my eyes recently, because of my lack of sleep because of crying, you could guess I'd say. I then put on some eyeliner with tiny flicks that looked amazing against my green eyes, if I must say. The best I could get anyway. I put on a thick layer of extra black lengthening mascara, and a slight pink blush on my cheeks to highlight my cheek bones. And to top it off I also coloured my eyebrows a little darker to make them stand out more. Once I had finished, I stood up and looked at my complete outfit in the mirror. I have to say, I looked really good, and I'm not even confident about myself but I feel like I'm actually pretty today. Thats a relief. 

I grabbed my back and threw it over my shoulder and skipped downstairs. I was in a good mood today for once. Once again I skipped breakfast, but my phone and keys were in the kitchen so I grabbed them as I eyed the food that I so desperately wanted but couldn't have. I hadn't eaten in two days but I feel so much skinnier already. I rushed myself away before my will power was completely lost. I walked out the door, and locked up. I started walking to school as I checked my phone, refreshing my twitter feed. Just the usual. The Janoskian fans that i followed fangirling over the boys. I clicked on my mentions, forgetting about the drama I caused in their fandom. Suddenly, I was reminded by the utter hurt I caused that fandom with a lot of hate and death threats filling my mentions to the brim. Before I could get upset and let them ruin my day, I exited the app and locked my phone. As I kept walking, I got a notification telling me I got a text. I pressed the unlock button to unlock my phone. My lockscreen just popped out at me. I ignored the text and just stared at the picture which was my lockscreen.

Luke and I at the park on the swings, me smiling and him kissing my cheek.

Of course, Beau was a bit on edge with my picture choice, but I reassured him it was only because we were best friends, but my homescreen was myself and Beau anyway. But this lockscreen just meant so much to me. It held so many memories. I can almost still feel his lips on my cheek. I can almost still taste him on my lips. I can still feel his presence. It was sweet, he actually set that photo as my lockscreen because it was his favourite. I think he thought I changed it whenever we broke up, but I never did. Everything just got so fucked up ever since that party, I just wish everything was the way it was whenever Luke and I were together, but the there's Beau and thats when it's just a mess.

I snapped myself from my thoughts and actually checked the text. 

'hi kels..just wanted you to know i'm not mad at you..i'll help you get yourself back on track with luke and beau and the girls too, please don't do anything stupid. love u, jai x'

Jai. Holy shit. Jai still cared. Why was Jai texting me though? Why wasn't Jai mad? I thought Jai would've taken his brothers sides? He even said he'd help me. Well then, I guess that's a weight lifted from me. What did he mean by 'don't do something stupid' though? I don't know what he meant by that but I guess I'll keep it in mind. I don't think I've been so happy about a text before. This could literally be everything getting better for me. I grinned at myself, probably looking like an idiot to anyone else watching. Jai was still there for me. I some how knew deep down that Jai didn't have it in him to hate someone. Especially the fact that he was one of my best friends, Jai couldn't go to hate someone like that, he just wasn't like that.