lost in confusion ↣ luke brooks/beau brooks

Chapter Twenty Nine

THIS CHAPTER IS GOING TO BE THE DINNER IN LUKE'S POV AND WHAT HAPPENED AFTER! 

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*Lukes POV*

After a short car journey to the small Italian restaurant my family had visited many times before, we finally arrived. My fingers were still entwined with Madison's, however it didn't feel right. But I knew this was only a short,non permanent, fake (in my perspective) relationship. But I couldn't shake the thought out of my mind, Madison's hand didn't mould into mine like Kelsey's used to. It didn't fit like hers did. Madison just wasn't right for me. It didn't feel normal or right, it felt strange and wrong. Which of course I knew it was. But I knew this was all going to be for the best soon enough. Maybe this will all work and I'll have my baby back in my arms, I'll have my Kelsey back. I felt sort of bad for doing this to Beau I guess, but so fuck, he took my girlfriend after our day long breakup. Yes we were broken up and I guess she's allowed to have relationships because that is completely out of my control, but it feels wrong seeing her with another guy. And not to mention Beau is my own brother. It does bother me, their relationship, more than it should. But I block my feelings away and act fine infront of her, to make her happy. I can hide my pain through my lips, by putting on a smile, but I can't hide my pain through my eyes, that will always uncover the truth. I think she saw through it to be honest, she saw my pain, but left it because she thinks she loves Beau. However I don't believe it for a second. Not to sound cocky, but I know she still loves me. She's just infatuated with Beau, but she loves me. If she would just realise I'm better for her. Why did I have to fuck everything up? Tell me, why? Why am I a complete idiot? I was drunk. Stupidly stupidly drunk. My stupid drunk mistake will continue to haunt me and eat away at my mind until I get her back. I will come back for her. She will be mine again. I'm going crazy without her, I need her with me. To cuddle, to love, to kiss. I want to spend my days with her, every second with her in my arms. If I ever do get her back, I will make sure I savour every moment I have with her left until our final days come.

I talked to Daniel about it all before I asked Madison to go out with me, just to make sure I was making the right decisions with my plan. Wondering why I chose to tell Daniel, the dopey boy he is? Because as silly and dopey he really is, when it comes to love, problems and all of that stuff, he's amazing with advice. He's the one that helped me pick up the courage and ask Kelsey to be mine all that while back. I explained to him everything, my love for Kelsey, how much I needed her, and how much I wanted her to be my forever. Daniel, however said that we were too young to know who our forever was, and what forever was. He also said he knows he loves Pandora, which we all know, but that of course he loves her, he still doesn't understand the concept of forever, and who will be his forever, as much as he hopes its Pandora, we can't be sure of who it will be, because fate changes all. Deep coming from Daniel huh?

As we walked into the Italian restaurant, Kelsey and Madison gasped as they took in the beauty of it. I however did not, as my eyes were very familiar to this place. My family would come down here every year for Christmas, Halloween, birthdays and sometimes just the occasional get together like this. A female staff member checked us in and brought us to our table to get us seated. She was obviously a new staff here, as our family basically knew everyone in this restaurant. Mom was very close with them all, they knew us very well. This staff member had a British accent, obviously moved here recently, as her accent was still very strong. No Australian influence on it yet.

Everyone got seated, I sat next to Madison, sadly not beside my dear Kelsey, but Kelsey was directly opposite me, which I was over joyed about, but beside Beau. Which I could do without. Woo, a couple of hours of watching them make out, making me jealous. Yay. Hmm, whatever, I guess this gives me a huge opportunity to get close with Madison and make Kelsey jealous as her eyes were mostly glued on me as I was opposite her. I snaked my arm around Madison's waist making her jump a little before resisting to my touch. I pulled her closer and kissed her lightly on the cheek. I looked at Kelsey at the side of my eye to find her eyes blaring into Madison. Jealous already. She looked away as I began making eye contact, and she turned to Beau, kissing his lips. I want her lips. I need those lips. I realised that Kelsey was no longer looking at Madison or me, so I decided I don't need to act all lovey with Madison anymore, thank god. Not that I was disgusted by Madison because really I wasn't, she was a lovely girl don't get me wrong, it just wasn't right with her at all, I needed Kelsey, that's all I wanted.