The Wicked Doctor

16: Compulsive Sexual Behavior (Revised)

Compulsive sexual behavior is sometimes called hypersexuality, hypersexuality disorder or sexual addiction. It's an excessive preoccupation with sexual fantasies, urges or behaviors that is difficult to control, causes you distress, or negatively affects your health, job, relationships or other parts of your life.

Compulsive sexual behavior may involve a variety of commonly enjoyable sexual experiences. Examples include masturbation, cybersex, multiple sexual partners, use of pornography or paying for sex. When these sexual behaviors become a major focus in your life, are difficult to control, and are disruptive or harmful to you or others, they may be considered compulsive sexual behavior.

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2014, 2nd year MBBS

Oslo, Norway

I thought I can handle everything on my own. Turns out I still need someone beside me. Kailangan ko pa rin ng sasandalan every now and then. 

I thought I would never need anyone's help.

I thought I was a super human.

I thought I no longer had to care about anything else or anyone else aside from myself.

Now here I am, with this man who makes me feel like I am safe. I can be vulnerable when I am with him. I can be weak in front of him. I can depend on him in my moments of weakness.

Terrence

She's so fragile. I feel like she's going to break in my arms. I really want to be her shield right now but does she want me to be her protector? I really don't know. I'm not sure about my feelings for her but all I know is that I want to always be around her. I want to protect her. I want to be her knight in shining armor. 

We aren't even lovers.

I'm not even courting her.

No real status.

What are we?

We were cuddling on bed when she looked up to my face and caressed my cheek. Then she said something that me wonder even more. 

"Thank you. Don't leave me... Please."

I couldn't stop myself anymore. I kissed her lips as gently as I could. I was so damn scared. I'm still confused but I feel like it was the most logical thing to do at the moment.

"Stop me. Please, just go home. I'll drive you home." I kept kissing her but at the same time asking her to leave me. Nauubos na ang pagpipigil ko sa katawan.

"Don't. Don't leave me." She pleaded.

And I kissed her like there was no tomorrow. Here lips were heavenly, like strawberries and honey. Damn it I want more. I know deep inside me that I want more of her. But I don't want to break her.

"Anrie, please.. This isn't right." I whispered onto her lips. I am definitely doing my best to hold it in but she's making it very hard for me. I'm losing all my control. 

She just smiled at me and kissed me fervently like her life depended on it.

Hindi ko na kaya!

I kissed her back an.d played with the hem of the shirt she was wearing. She took my hand and laid it on her stomach. She then kissed me fully on the lips. I took that as a sign to dip in kiss her torridly.