54: Psychotherapy

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Psychotherapy is a type of therapy used to treat emotional problems and mental health conditions. It involves talking to a trained therapist, either one-to-one, in a group or with your wife, husband or partner. It allows you to look deeper into your problems and worries, and deal with troublesome habits and a wide range of mental disorders, such as depression and schizophrenia.

Psychotherapy usually involves talking, but sometimes other methods may be used - for example, art, music, drama and movement.

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"Ri, you got mail." Sigaw niya mula sa tabi ng mailbox habang naglalakad papasok sa bahay.

"What is it? Is it from kuya?" Pabalik na sigaw ko sa kanya. Busy ako sa pagluluto ng late breakfast namin sa kusina nang makapasok siya sa bahay. Hawak hawak pa rin niya ang envelope at tinititigan ang address nito.

"It's from a Jennifer Andersen from Oslo, Norway. Who's this?" Inikot ikot pa niya ang sobre at binuksan ito. He smiled when he saw the content and waved it to me.

Napangiti na rin ako nang nakita ko ito nang malapitan. It's a wedding invitation from Jennifer and her husband to be, I just don't know who exactly the groom is.

Inakbayan ako ni Raven at nakisilip na rin sa contents ng imbitasyon ng kasal. Saglit pa naming tinignan ang mga detalye bago niya ako hinila papunta sa dining table at niyayang kumain.

"So.... you're going?" Tanong niya sa akin.

"I want to go to my friend's wedding. I really want to, Rae. Can you come with me?" I used my puppy dog eyes on him because I really wanted him as my companion.

"I'll see what I can do, Ri. If there's a court hearing, I might not be able to accompany you on that day. You can go ahead and book a flight though."

"Rae, please?" Mataman niya akong tinignan na parang binabasa ang laman ng isip ko. He gave me a reassuring smile, seemingly understanding why I didn't want to go alone.

Bringing Raven with me gives me a feeling of security.

"Ri, so what if he's there? You can do this with or without me. You're a lot stronger now, very different from the Anrie who left Austria 2 years ago. You can do this." Inilapat niya ang mga palad niya sa pisngi ko at hinalikan ang noo ko.

"I'll call your kuya. Maybe he can go with you if ever my schedule won't allow me to. You ok with that?" Tumango at yumakap sa baywang niya.

It's been 2 years since I left. It wasn't easy leaving everything and everyone behind but with the help of Rae, kuya Jake and ate Michelle, I was able to pull through. Countless sessions with the psychiatrist and thousands of dollars later, I was stronger than ever.

No more depressive and suicidal thoughts. I was free from the clutches of depression.

Naroon pa rin yung anxiety pero kaya ko nang labanan dahil alam kong hindi na ako mag-isa. May mga taong nagmamahal sa akin at hindi nila ako pababayaan. There are still times na naaalala ko si Terrence pero hindi na kasing-sakit ng dati at mas naaalala ko na yung mga magandang pinagsamahan namin. I guess I have completely moved on.

But then, seeing him in person after everything that happened is different from just remembering him or imagining him. I am scared... scared of how I would really react when he's right in front of me. There is a possibility that I might break down or even trigger negative thoughts and that is what I am avoiding.

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