WARNING: Medyo mas awkward!!!----
Nagising ako sa tunog ng alarm clock ko. It's already 2 in the morning and I have set this time for my early morning reflection. Kahit na gaano ka busy ang schedule ko, I make it a point to find time to get to know more Jesus dahil hindi natatapos na kilala lang natin Siya kung hindi dapat ay mas lumalalim at lumalalim pa sa bawat araw.
I headed to the restroom to take a quick shower when I realized that I have already changed into a comfy shirt and remembered what happened last night.
I could barely move and I was so weak and I have a feeling that it was Lucy who has changed my clothes. Medyo napahinto ako sa paghuhubad nang makita kong baligtad ang pagkakasuot ko ng boxers ko. Could it be that she also changed my boxers? Hindi ko mapigilang mapangiti at mag-isip kung paano niyang nagawa iyon. Most likely she was in a hurry dahil baligtad ang pagkakasuot niya.
Bahagyang nag-init ang mga pisngi ko nang maisip kong Lucy might have seen what's inside my boxers at sana lang talaga, di ko siya na disappoint. Mine has never disappointed any women back then at alam kong enjoy na enjoy sila sa kung anong meron ako pero paano kung hindi nagustuhan ni Lucy ang nakita niya? How will I make her happy in our honeymoon? It would be her first time and I want to make it meaningful and memorable for her.
'Will, what are you thinking about?' Bulong ng isang bahagi ng utak ko. 'You and your perverted desires. Bakit di mo kaya muna isipin kung nasaan si Lucy ngayon bago yang honeymoon?'
Bigla akong nabalik sa realidad at napaisip kung nasaan nga si Lucy. I mean did she drive middle of the night to her own place? Basang basa rin siya ng ulan. Anong klase akong boyfriend para hayaan lang siyang mag-isa? At bakit ngayon pa ko nagkasakit?
Dali dali akong lumabas ng banyo at di-nial ang number ni Lucy.
'I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow...'
Nag ring ang phone ni Lucy at dinig na dinig ko yun dahil nakita kong nagliwanag ang cellphone niya sa side table ko. This only means that Lucy might be sleeping somewhere in the couch at nakakainis lang na alam kong di siya komportable sa kung anong maaaring sleeping position niya.
What have I done Lucy? I wore my pants and hoped that Lucy is okay dahil kung may masamang nangyari sa kanya dahil sa pagiging mahina ko, di ko alam kung anong pwede kong gawin sa sarili ko.
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My heart almost melted when I saw Lucy's angelic face sleeping peacefully with my shirt on that really looks good on her. At hindi sa couch siya nakatulog kung hindi sa kusina. Nakapatong ang ulo niya sa mesa katabi ng pinggan, kutsara at casserole na marahil ay ginamit niya kanina when she served me dinner.
I found myself caressing her check and smiling to myself. Right before me is the woman I want to wake up every day with.
Bahagya kong tinapik ang balikat ni Lucy para magising siya. As much as I wanted to savor her beauty, she needs to be awake to help me loosen up. I could feel my hormones racing all over my body screaming and wanting me to feel Lucy but I have to wait for the right time, the right opportunity, that magical moment when we would both scream in pleasure after we've exchanged our vows. I need to wake her up bago pa ko di makapagpigil.
"Love magaling ka na ba?" Agad na tumayo si Lucy at hinawakan ang noo ko. Ramdam ko ang pagtayo ng mga balahibo ko dahil sa sobra naming pagkakalapit.
I moved her hands at lumayo sa kanya ng bahagya. Medyo napataas ang kilay ni Lucy at nagtataka sa ginawa ko.
"I am okay Doctor Lucy Guiterrez. And I want to keep this distance to save this relationship."
"Ano?" Medyo pareho kaming napangiti dahil nakita ni Lucy na bahagya kong ginulo ang buhok ko out of frustration.
"Love naman kasi eh. Bakit mo naman suot yang damit ko tapos nakatapis ka lang ng towel ko. Bakit mo ko pinapahirapan ng ganito? It's so hard for me to control the magnet that is pulling me towards you."
"Sira ka pala eh! Wala kaya akong damit na dala. Paano kung ako naman ang magkasakit? Basing basa kaya ang dress ko kanina kaya kumuha na lang ako ng damit mo, tapos ano..."
"Ano?"
"Lahat naman ng boxers mo ano, nagamit mo na. I mean walang bago na di mo pa nasusuot kaya ano..."
"You mean?" Nanuyo ang lalamunan ko sa mga naiisip ko at napahinga ako ng malalim. This is really a torture to me. Sobrang torture na talaga.
"Oo." Tumango si Lucy at nakita kong nag blush ang pareho niyang pisngi.
"Love, next time, gigisingin mo ko para makapagbihis ka ng maayos not unless you are really tempting me."
"Hala! William, umayos ka!"
"Im just kidding. Come, I'll give you some proper clothes to wear including the one down there and up there."
"Baka magalit si Geline love kapag kumuha tayo ng gamit niya."
"Hindi naman tayo kukuha sa gamit niya Love. Kukuha ka sa gamit mo."
"Gamit ko?" Takang tanong ni Lucy sa akin.
"Yup."
"Paano akong nagkaroon ng gamit dito sa unit mo? You mean dinala dito ni Maggie?"
"Nope. I bought them for you."
"Ha?"
"Love, kasi ano, kapag.. kapag nasa mall ako o kaya nasa bazaar tapos I'd see something that fits you, I bought them and bring them home and place them in a small cabinet that is just for you."
"What?! Hindi ko pa rin gets Will."
"Di ba sabi mo, as much as possible, no material things na gift for you. Ayaw mo kong gumastos para sa yo, kaya binibili ko na lang ng palihim and placed them in another room, hoping that someday, I could give them all to you."
Nakita kong nagliwanag ang mga mata ni Lucy at lalo siyang gumanda dahil lumabas din ang magkabilang biloy niya sa pisngi.
"You mean may isa ka pang room dito?"
"Nagpagawa ako recently para paglagyan ng mga dress, shoes at bags I bought for you. Tara sa tabi ng room ni Geline."
Tumalikod ako at naunang naglakad palayo kay Lucy pero di pa ako gaanong nakalalayo nang maramdaman ko ang yakap ni Lucy sa likod ko at bahagya namang nagwala yung nasa loob ng boxers ko.
"Love, thank you. Thank you for loving me more and more every day."
"Love wala yun. Mahal na mahal na mahal naman talaga kita. At dahil mahal kita love, pwede bang next time, wag mo na kong bigla biglang yayakapin ng tulad ng ganito?"
Humarap ako kay Lucy at parehong nangusap ang aming mga mata.
I bent over and kissed her forehead.
"Love, just give me 10 minutes to shower and tone my hormones down ha? Di ko na kasi talaga kaya eh. Magpakasal na kasi tayo para di na mahirap na ganito."
Lucy smiled and I was surprised when she pulled me for a kiss. Mabilis lang yun pero naging napakasaya ko.
"Darating din tayo diyan Will. In God's time."
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