So, Basically I'm Me.

Losing It Slowly.

"Austin, can you please help me with the box I have up in my room?" I said, taking down another box.

"How many boxes do you have?" He asked, clearly tired.

"Do you want me to live with you or not? I asked.

"Yes! I'll go get it babe." He went up the stairs and fetched my last box.

Maybe I should explain what's going on. A few weeks ago, Austin asked me to live with him. I was ecstatic. We asked my mom permission and she said yes. She knew I had nothing to live for here, in Miami, anymore. With Ana gone and Austin always away, I wouldn't really be able to survive. Alex had found someone else. Her name's Sarah. They love each other very much and I'm really happy for them.

"Olive, I'm done. That's the very last box." I nodded and walked up to my mom, which had tears in her eyes in a smile on her face.

"Mom, I will visit you on ALL the holidays. I will always thank you for letting me go." my voice cracked. She smiled.

"I will miss you sweetie. Never forget to call me or text me everyday. At least to tell me you're okay." I nodded

"Yes mom. At least you have Michele here." She nodded. I started sobbing and hugging her.

"Shush, shush.. Don't cry. I'll be fine." She said.

"I'll miss you soo much."

"At least you'll have Austin." I nodded.

"Until later mom." I let her go and walked to Austin's car. She walked out and waited at the door, waving goodbye at Austin and I as we drove away to the airport. 

"Now nothing can keep us apart." Austin smiled. I only half-smiled, because I was going to miss Miami and because I'd never traveled before and I was extremely nervous. " Olive, are you okay?" he asked me. 

"Y-yeah.. I'm very nervous that's all." I tried to keep from crying. Austin pulled over the car and leaned over. 

"Olive, know this is hard for you but believe me, it will be alright. I'll never let you go again. EVER." He really added emphasis to the last word. As if I didn't know that he loved me. 

" I trust you Austin." Was all I could manage. He kissed me and we drove off again one more time. When we got to the Airport, our flight was delayed. So... we went around and did what teenagers do when they are bored... A huge mess. 

We tormented people and literally just ran around like crazy. We skateboarded around, sang at the top of our lungs randomly. We pranked certain teenagers and just had fun. By the end of that we were all extremely tired so, I guess at one point we just lay down and fell asleep. 

Remember how I could see Ana in my dreams? Well, it still happens. I talk to her and she talks to me about her heaven. She helps me get past certain things. She never looked so beautiful as when she was alive. On heaven she just glows all the time. Well, the point is I can still see her and talk to her. This time, she looked particularly worried. 

" Ana, what's wrong?" I asked her. She was braiding my hair with flowers. Here in her heaven, she could do whatever skill she wanted to. 

"I've been observing my mom and she doesn't look to good." was all  she said. 

"Good in what aspect?" 

"Well, she's been depressed lately and she won't talk to anybody. She doesn't want to move on since I died." 

"Your death was a big blow for her. Can you talk to her too?" I asked. 

"No, she shields her mind to the point where sometimes, I can't even see her." She was sad. The reason for this wsn't only because her mom wasn't okay. It was because, if she tried to commit suicide, she wouldn't be able to live her heaven and never see Ana again. Ana was just waiting for the day that she could reunite with her mom. And her mom was losing it slowly...