Letting Go

One

Love is like the fall.

While leaves topple,

My heart slowly trips, I can't control.

Leaves start to get fewer,

But our love goes deeper.

Memoirs will last forever.

-Autumn

Napatingin ako sa diary ko at dinagdagan ang mga nakasulat dito. I smiled bitterly. Hindi pa namin tapos sulatan ni Daddy 'to, iniwan nya kaagad ako. I miss you Daddy.

Natapos ang kadramahan 101 ko, at sinulatan ko ng poem angd diary ko. It's just that I am poetic and writing's one of my passion. Usually, nakakapagsulat ako kapag peaceful. And I find tonight placid with a bitterly cold temperature.

Naglakad-lakad ako, at after few minutes napansin ko nalang na nasa tapat na 'ko ng park. I look up and see the stars, and then I realize that it actually doesn't fit a shape of a star.

Pinatong ko yung diary sa ibabaw ng malaking bato and put my earphones back to my ears. I shuffled the music. Nag-play ang Iris, Drop in the Ocean, acoustic version ng Wake Up by Coheed and Cambria, The Call ni Regina Spektor, at ang mga kanta ng Owl City at ni Ed Sheeran.

I laid down on the verdant bermuda grass and watched the shadows of the birds flying. I'm not feeling well. Every piece of tonight seems too nostalgic.

Have you ever felt like breaking this nostalgia but you just can't? You simply can't.

How many times have I tried to throw, burn, or reap every single page of this diary? Hindi ko lang talaga kaya. Knowing that all of the memoirs Daddy had left will be gone.

I closed my eyes, and drop of tears start falling.

Memoirs in my overstretching brain started to flow just like a river, while this chilly air made my mind function. It's too refreshing that you'll start to hate every single and even the smallest nerve of it for remembering everything.

I wish I can let go of things easily.

I closed my eyes even tighter.

-

Nagulat nalang ako ng may dim ng light akong naaaninag. I opened my phone and what the heck. It's already 11:03 pm. But that thing's actually not the problem. 32 missed calls mula sa gwapo kong kuya. Ohmyghad.

Napahigpit yung hawak ko sa phone ko habang tumatakbo.

Bilis. Bilisan mo. Dali. Fasterrrrr.

Lahat na ata ng synonyms ng word na bilis nasabi ko na. Buti nalang malapit lang yung bahay.

"San ka galing?"