Just Me

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Okay, so I have some good news!

You ready?

Drum roll n all that shit.

Bum bum bUUUUM.

I got the guy's number (like his actual number, I only asked for Kik but his phone number was fine apparently). And I'm happy I even asked because, I mean, I got that out of the way. I woMANed up and asked him.

But the bad news.

He already has a girlfriend.

bUT THAT'S FRIGGIN FINE. Because I can still be friends with him.

Maybe.

I don't know.

But I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't sad right now.

I set my heart way too much on getting to know him and all that stuff. Set it too much on him. Now that wall of hopes and confidence has crumbled down into nothing but duST.

And that's okay, I guess.

At least I found out he had someone already without any awkward situation like: me already confessing and him telling me "oh, I'm sorry, but I have a girlfriend already". I saved myself the trouble. Well, technically he did because when I asked him if I could talk with him more via text, he told me he had a gf. And I played it cool and was like, "Pfft, that's fine, I don't wanna keep in touch because of that. I just wanna be friends!" Something along those lines. He understood and he told me his schedule for when he's open to talking, since he is a pretty "not me" sort of person, where I'm kind open to text any time.

So yeah.

It's been a semi-long road.

I got to get a taste at a hard-ass crush and, inevitably, as I had thought it would, it literally crushed me.

Damn.

Well, shit, now I can focus on the other stuff in my life without crushes.

Fuck that shit, mang. I don't need it. I have my friends anyway. And my family. And my dog. Even though she's a huge jerk.

I'll be fine. At the most, now I'll be friends with him. He's still a good person and I still respect him for the way he is. I won't shut him out like other people might do with their unsuccessful crushes. Because he's a good person, and he doesn't deserve something like that when he has no fuckin' idea what he did wrong. It's my fault that I even fell for him anyway.

So, I'll just go on with life, without the weight of this crush. Go back to writing and being me. All that jazz.

I don't know when I'll be updating because I'm still working on the next chapter for C&B. It turned out not how I thought it would, so I'll need to figure stuff out. But...I think I'll just try to chill after this. If you get me?

I'll be fine. I swear.

I don't need to be in a relationship anyway. That stuff is too much on my emotions.

I know this was depressing, but shit, I'm a depressing person.
¯\_(ツ)_/¯

HooWOo.

Hope you guys had a great day, though. Mine was okay, up until ya know. But, if you didn't have a great day then watch this.

Because daMMIT THIS VIDEO IS GOLD.

Have a great day, yo. Thanks for being there.

See ya.