A/N: This is the most SPG that you are going to get from me. Pasensya na kung sabaw. Kung hardcore porn ang hanap mo, huwag dito. Charet. Lamyu.
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I could tell that the first kiss took her by surprise. It took her a few seconds to react. Akala ko magagalit siya so I tested the waters muna and when her lips parted, I knew it was my signal to continue. I traced the outlines of her teeth with my tongue and she responded with a soft moan. This time, she was moaning for me and not for some workshop exercise.
When we broke the kiss kasi kinailangan namin ng hangin, she jokingly said hindi niya malasahan ang garlic so she wanted another one. Expect Maine to come up with the silliest lines but I'm happy she asked. Hahalikan ko pa rin naman siya kahit hindi siya nagsabi. At the back of my mind, I knew I had to ask her kung ano kami, what our official status is, but the label can wait-the kiss cannot.
Here, in the privacy of her condo, I want to do nothing else but kiss her. We were still on the couch, the tub of ice cream forgotten. I brushed the hair off her face and then slowly lift her chin up, angling it so our lips could meet. I tilt my head and lean toward her. I have kissed a good number of girls my entire life pero ngayon, grabe lang. My heart is racing and my breathing is unsteady. I want her so bad.
Maine closed her eyes and I did, too. When our lips met again, para akong kinuryente. She smelled so good, as if she just stepped out of the shower. I am heady with anticipation. I nibbled on her lower lip and I could feel her smile. My hands found their way toward the small of her back and I pulled her closer to me. I could feel every curve of her body against mine.
She raised her arms and threaded her fingers into my hair as I traced her lips with my tongue. Our kiss deepened, cold tongues tentative at first, but were soon at home sharing the same space. She tasted of dark chocolate and cherries and mint and everything else that is good. Ayokong tumigil, kahit maubos pa ang hangin sa katawan ko.
And then she moved, her mouth never leaving mine. She sat on my lap, her legs straddling me. My hands roam all over her back, gently caressing, searching, until they land at the side of her breasts. I was pleasantly surprised to discover she wasn't wearing a bra. She moaned yet again and I wanted to do more. With Maine, I always want to do more, and more.
Pero I needed to stop myself kahit sobrang hirap. Baka kung saan mapunta 'to and I just want to make sure na ito rin ang gusto niya. In my life, she always comes first. Always.
We broke the kiss and spent a full minute catching our breaths. She was still straddling me and sigurado ako she could feel my arousal. I didn't even bother to hide it. I want her to know she has this effect on me.
But first, I need to know where we're at, if we're on the same page. I don't do fuck buddies, I don't do friends with benefits, I don't do MUs. For me, unfair yun para sa babae. Maine needs to know I am willing to commit myself to her. Hindi pwedeng MOMOL lang for the sake of MOMOL. And so I asked,
"Maine, I don't want you to think I'm rushing you, pero andito na tayo sa ganito," I said, brushing her lips with my thumb, "Alam mo how I feel about you, alam mo na mahal na mahal kita. I know you wouldn't let me kiss you if wala naman akong puwang sa puso mo but please, I just need to hear you say it. Will you be my girlfriend?"
She stayed silent for a while. She just leaned unto me, our foreheads meeting, our lips a few inches away from each other. I waited. The thing is, I would have waited for a long time and she won't hear me complain. I'll wait until she's ready.
Finally, I heard her sigh, her face all serious. Ito ang Maine na nakakapagpakaba sa akin.
"Ayoko," she said, shaking her head.
Para akong sinapak sa narinig ko, parang balloon na nag-deflate. Akala ko yun na eh. Apparently, hindi. Mukhang hindi pa siya ready so I'm not going to push it. Sabi ko nga, I'll wait.
And then she leaned in some more, our lips barely touching. Her warm breath making the hair on my neck stand up, she whispered,
"Ayoko nang patagalin 'to," and she gave me a soft peck on the lips.
"I love you, Richard."
A kiss.
"Sobra."
She started to move on top of me and it's driving me crazy. My mouth went straight to her neck, planting wet kisses as I moved from one spot to another. My hands started to make their way toward her chest and settled on the pebbled tips straining through the thin fabric of her shirt. I caressed them with my thumbs as I hear her gasp.
But she did more than gasp. In the heat of the moment, I'm a hundred percent sure I heard something else.
Umutot siya.
Ang lakas, tangina. Panira, buset. Wala na eh, sira na. Basag. Ayun, tawa na lang kami ng tawa.
Pero si B1, lumuluha na.
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