TW: SAD AND DEPRESSING CONTENT.
Lachlan's POV
I drive on the road in what looks like a ghost town. I haven't gone down this road in a while.
I pulled over on the side of the road, stopping at my destination.The bittersweet location.
I sigh running my hands through my hair. I make my way past the polished rocks with engravings on them.
I find the oh so familiar black and white stone and kneel down next to it.
"Hey love" I breath running my fingers over the engraved words 'Simon Minter'.
I smiled at the name knowing my lover was looking over me right now.
'1992-2016' . He died 2 months ago, back in June.
'Loving friend,son and boyfriend.' I smiled at the word 'boyfriend'. I was-am- his boyfriend.
I sat down beside the grave leaning on it.
"I hope you're happy where you are. I miss you so very much Si." I say.
"It's been a while since I've been here. Sorry, The others wouldn't let me go." I sigh with a slight smile.
"Can i tell you about my day? I'm gonna. So a while ago i got a new job, crazy right? I mean i work enough on YouTube you'd think it would be hard to have a real job. I work in an office answering phone calls. It's quite boring but hey, I get paid like 20 dollars an hour! Plus i can work on editing there." I smile.
"But a few days ago i got a phone call and it was this lady asking about how she can get her son to stop watching YouTube. Not gonna lie, It was quite stressful trying not to snap on her. If her son enjoys watching YouTube then shouldn't she let him? Anyway, she told me that it's becoming to addicting to him. I laughed. Like i actually laughed at this. I asked her 'Does your son act different when he hasn't watch anything?' And she said yes. I knew what was happening. Remember when you were younger and you'd watch videos and it made you super happy? that's what was happening with him! I bet my life on it. I just told her to ask him about it and see why he enjoys it so much. She agreed, thanked me and hung up." I smile remembering the moment.
"Then today i got a phone call from the same lady and she wouldn't stop thanking me. I asked her what for and she told me that if i hadn't had told her to ask then he probably wouldn't have been alive much longer. Turns out he was suffering from major depression and anxiety and YouTube was the thing that kept him going. I saved a life Si. I just wish i could of saved yours. If i only knew that you also suffered from depression." I sighed looking down with tears in my eyes.
"I miss you Si. I wish you were here, so i could hold you tight telling you everything was gonna be okay. Kiss that beautiful face of yours and tell you how much i loved you no matter how many times you told me to stop. I wish i could tell you how beautiful you are although i know you would just deny it. Now that i think about it, i don't know how i didn't notice that you were depressed. Fuck, it's all my fault." I bow my head as tears rush down my face.
"I am so sorry, babe. I wish i could of stopped you. I made a mistake that can't be taken back. I love you so so much Si." I say kissing the stone.
I stand up, running my hand across his name. I smile and walk past the other people who have died.
I make it to my car and jump in. "I'll miss you Si." I whisper.
I buckle up and drive away down the silent road.
I love you Si.
