Simon's POV
It turns out he's moved on. He being Vikk. The little Brit boy who i loved with all my heart. We just didn't work out, he didn't feel the spark anymore.
Of course i still did, still do.But I live with him, it's not like i can avoid him my whole life.
"Hey Si." He smiles, sitting at the island. It's been about a month or so. Yeah, it hurts quite a bit but there was no way i was gonna tell him that.
"Hey." I mutter, grabbing a red bull. Needless to say i turned into a mess afterwards.
Staying up later than usual, drinking probably way to much red bull, wacky recording and uploading schedule and not doing many IRL videos anymore. The fans probably have noticed, but what is it to me?
"What's new?" He asks, setting his phone down. "Nothing. You?" I ask, trying to be at least nice. "Oh nothing. I'll be out later tonight. So, You'll be alone in the house. That's okay, Yeah?" He asks.
I give him a questioned look but nod slightly. He was probably going out with his "close friend", as he calls it, which is Lachlan. "I'm hanging with Lachlan later, in case you were wondering." He smiles.
I knew they were more than friends. Vikk sending texts to my phone that was supposed to go to Lachlan's saying "I love you".
It makes my heart skip a beat every time because i still hope he'll change his mind. But once it's followed by a "sorry, wrong person", my heart drops.
"Yeah okay." I mutter, slightly angry. "You okay?" He asks, completely clueless. "Yeah, I'm fine." I say, wondering back up to my room.
-Time Skip-
It's been a few days, Lachlan's been back and forth between his place and ours. He tried to talk to me, every time i shut him down. He just didn't get why i didn't want to talk to him.
I mean, i shouldn't be mad at Lachlan, I should be mad at Vikk because he's the one who broke up with me.
Sitting in my room is lonely. I miss Vikk walking in just to play on his phone on my bed. But even then, i wasn't alone. Vikk was there with me, even if he wasn't talking.
I sadly get up, walking down the stairs and into the kitchen. "Hey Simon." Josh says. "Hi." I mumble. "Have you seen Vikk la-" I cut him off "Why don't you go ask his boyfriend." I spat.
"Simon..." Josh sighs. "What Josh? Am i supposed to be worried?! Worried about the boy who hurt me?" I mutter anger.
"Look, I don't know what the hell happened between you two but i want it to stop. You won't even look at each other, let alone speak to each other. People are noticing in videos too. Vikk's going through problems too! Have you ever thought about his feelings!" He yells.
I stand there speechless, Josh was right. But no way does that mean I'm gonna help him. He broke my heart and left me, I'll do the same to him.
"I don't care." I mumble, lying. "Fine Simon. Act like that. But he's your best friend, you should help him." He says, walking away. Tears slip down my cheeks as i take it all in.
I knew Josh was right, i should-need- to help him, but i can't. "You okay Simon?" A certain boy asks. I look over at Vikk and go to tell him everything, but stop myself.
I shake my head and run up the stairs to leave him confused. I plop down onto my bed, sighing heavily and crying.
-Time Skip-
"Mornin' Si" JJ says. I nod at him and grab my 3rd red bull today and it's not even 12. "You gotta quit havin' so many of those bro." JJ informs, trying to grab it from me. "Fuck off." I mutter, pulling my arm away.
He stares at me in slight shock as i head up to my room. I hear footsteps coming up the stairs, but passing my door. A few doors open and close until i hear a soft knock on my door.
Too quiet to be JJ but too off to be Josh.
"Come in." I mutter. Vikk walks into my room, staring at me. "Ugh. What?" I ask, tired of having to deal with this. "What's up with you today?" He asks sweetly. I swear to god Vikk, you won't win that easily.
"Nothing." I mutter. "Are you okay?" He asks. I look up at him, staring in disbelief. "Are you really asking me that?!" I crack.
"Are you really asking me if I'm okay after you took my heart and smashed it to pieces!? After you dumped me for your blonde haired boy toy!? After all the pain you put me through!?" I scream. Tears now stung my eyes, wanting to slide down my cheeks. "Simon, I'm so sor-" "No you aren't! You are no where close to sorry! You keep saying stuff that you don't mean! You say you're sorry just so you don't look like a jerk! But guess what!?! YOU ARE!" I yell, tears now running down my face.
"Maybe I'm just trying to get you back.." He says in a whisper. "Maybe I'm trying to make you jealous so i can have you again. Maybe i realized that breaking up with you was a mistake." He says, a little louder. I stare at him with my eyes wide.
"So...You don't love Lachlan?" I ask, tears still falling. "No. Him and I are really just close friends." He says, looking down. "Vikk. Oh my, I'm so sorry." I say, standing up and walking over to him.
I pull him close to me, tilting his gaze to meet mine. I sadly smile at the small boy in front of me. I lean in slightly, him doing the same. "I love you still." I whisper just as i press my lips onto his. I kiss him softly, cupping his cheek. He kisses me back, melting into my arms.
I snake my arms around his waist as his find their way around my neck. I stoke his upper hip as i keep our lips locked together.
Maybe, he will win that easy.
