Vikk's POV
I smiled as i felt the soft buzz of my phone.
I pick it up and see 'Snapchat from Lachy' lit up on my dim screen.
Lachlan and i have been flirting and talking for the past month, very often too. At times he can be a little harsh and unloving, but most of the time he has my whole heart.
I click my home button and enter in my password. I try not to get attached too quickly, knowing it would only hurt me in the end.
Although i mentally knew that, acting on it was different. I click his contact and read what he said.
Lachy: Hiii
Me: Hiya cutie
I was left on read. I was used to this by now. Past month he leaves me on read for a while then he finally answers.
It bothers me a lot actually. I don't know why he does it either. I kept checking my phone over and over hoping to see his name.
I feel the buzz, only to be disappointed by it being someone else. I sigh externally.
I knew that i was being annoying to him, but i just wanted to always be talking to him. He's practically my life line at this point.
Only reason I'm still kicking, only reason I'm still mentally okay.
I feel a pang in my heart, anxiety setting in. I didn't know what was happening until i was almost suffocating.
Thoughts in my head pounded, saying horrible and mean things.
He hates you
He doesn't love you
He wants you gone
You're annoying
Shut up
Stop texting him
They run through my head like its a game, a sick sick game. I try to control my thoughts as best as i could, trying to focus on something else.
I sit up, tugging on my hair quite harshly. My chest feels as if I'm inhaling acid and exhaling nothing.
When i stand up, i knew i was about to do something bad. I walk over to my wall and punch it as hard as i could.
I punch it over and over again, until i cant feel a thing anymore.
My hand is numb and my thoughts gone. I was broken, inside and out.
I look down at my freshly bruised hand, seeing specks of blood pop out of my knuckles. He causes me so much pain and heartbreak, but i love him to pieces.
My phone was sitting on my messy bed, taunting me.
I knew i was being pathetic and annoying, but i couldn't just let him go. I reach for my phone, half way through stopping.
It was useless, even trying anymore was useless. My phone buzzed, yet i have no motivation to pick it up.
I didn't want to be hurt with the fact that it might not be him. I threw my phone face down across the room into a pile of clothes.
This was the only way i could distract myself, was to eliminate all communication between him and I.
I lay down on top my sheets and stare at my ceiling. My hand throbs as i simply lay in my bed and think.
Think about all the reasons i should leave.
All the reasons i should stay.
And you could probably guess which list was longer.
My phone starts to continuously buzz so i get up in case it was mum calling.
I picked it up, Lachlan's number on my screen. I swipe and answer.
"H-hi?" I mumble. "I didn't know i hurt you this badly. I'm so sorry. I'm sending you a link to a song." And he hangs up.
I sigh, tears pricking my eyes ever so slightly.
When i click on the link, my heart beats faster. I start to cry, but happy tears this time.
My phone buzzes in my hand with a message from Lachlan.
Lachy: 'Cause I know in my mind there was something and I know in my heart there was you.
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Hey what's up you guys yes
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