Without You Is How I Disappear

She's downstairs Gerard

{Gerard's P.O.V}

Lyn-z was crying. She often cried. Her pale skinned hands were covering her face as she began sobbing. Pretty much every inch of her hand was covered in needles and pins with IV lines everywhere. Her skin was ghostly white, like all the colour was drained out. I'd been by her side everyday and I'd noticed that each time another day rolled around, she became weaker and just lay in the hospital bed dull and lifeless.

I rested my hand on her shoulder but she jerked back. What? Why did she pull away when I tried to comfort her? Had I done something wrong? I moved my arm again and raised my hand to her shoulder but she pulled away for the second time.

"Linds, hunny, what's - what's wrong?"

Her hands pulled away from her face and she turned to look at me.

She started to muffle words out but they didn't make much sence. What happened, what's going on?

In that moment a doctor came in the room and Lyn-z began to shed all the tears she possibly could as they fell over her bottom eye lid.

"What's going on?!" I called out but earned now explanation.

The doctor walked over to Linds and whispered something to her.

"CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON RIGHT NOW?!" I yelled across the room at the two of them. They separated and the doctor dragged me out of the room by my arm.

Frank was outside there, so was Jamia with Miles in her arms and the twins sat on Frank's knee. Ray and Christa where there too. Mikey sat on a bench down the hall way. I noticed my parents with him, Steve, Jimmy and Jennifer on the bench opposite.

The doctor left my side hurriedly and headed down the corridor.

What the hell is happening? Why is everyone we basically know out here?

Then I noticed, if everyone is here, then where is Bandit?

Frank gave eye contact first so I asked him immediately.

"Frank, where's Bandit?" His eyes were glossed over and shimmered in the hospital lights. He had a look of grief and sadness covering his expression. At that point Jamia leaned into Frank and nusseled her head between his neck and shoulder blade.

Christa answered.

"She's downstairs Gerard."

"Why is she down stairs Christa?" I asked through gritted teeth.

I know what's downstairs. What is my girl doing downstairs?

Christa didn't answer. Instead a single tear rolled down her face as she did the same as Jamia, nusseling her head between Ray's neck and shoulder blade. He wrapped his arms round her and covered his face with his afro.

"Why is my daughter downstairs Christa?" I repeated still with gritted teeth.

Small squeaks were released each time she gasped for air between sobs behind Ray's head.

I looked round at everyone.

Cherry moved off Frank's knee and was sat on a chair beside him looking at the floor. Lily leaned into Frank's chest and was hugging him. He had an arm round her small waist. His other arm was round Jamia's shoulder. Miles was still asleep in her arms and her neck, still cradled on Frank's shoulder. He had sorrow in his eyes as he kissed the top of Lily's head.

Ray and Christa were basically morphed into one giant hug. His afro covering their expressions but their arms were shown wrapped tightly round eachother.