Without You Is How I Disappear

Milk-Tash

{Still Gerard's P.O.V}

We headed out of Bee's room leaving the door open just a crack. We went to the living room and crashed out along the sofa. We didn't put on the t.v or anything like that, we just talked. We talked about old times, stuff from when she was a kid, when I was a kid, high-school. Just talked and laughed without the beer I'd usually sip on through these kind of moments.

She lay down resting her feet on my lap as we both sat either end facing eachother.

"You been writing anything yet for the label?" Lyn-z broke out onto the topic of work and tour and stuff.

"Few ideas but nothing major I think will really be any good." I said sliding off her shoes.

"How about the album name, you got that planned out yet?"

"Nothing really, it's the fith album so I'm just gonna call it MCR5 at the moment I think." I answered chucking the shoes along the floor. "You wanna dance?" I added tilting my head to look at her.

She lifter her feet off my lap. I took off and played some quiet music on the stereo system.

I went back over to her and pulled her up. I slid both my hands down to her hips and let them wrap around her back. She raised hers over my head linking her fingers together tight, placing them around my neck holding them there as we moved side to side, back and forth through the living room.

After a little while I felt her head softly crash into my chest. I tilted forward as we continued to dance slowly and I kissed her on the top of her head then permanently rested my chin on top.

It was romantic.

After about an hour, we danced over to our room and I laid her softly on the bed while she fell asleep. I brought the sheets over to her and then took the heavy, thick blanket from the end of the bed and laid it over the duvet on top of her.

I went back to the living room and turned off the music along with all the lights. On my way back, I headed to Bee's room and cracked the door a little bit more so I could see her. She was peaceful and cuddling onto Harry. I felt as a little smile wiped over my expression.

I removed myself from the door and turned on the bathroom light so that if Bee needed to go, there was a light switched on for her.

I can't believe she's almost three. She's grown up so much.

I went back to our room and crawled in the bed trying not to wake Lyn-z and took the laptop from the side of my bed. I began looking for presents for Bandit's birthday. Me and Lyn-z hadn't really talked about it but I wasn't tired at all.

I also texted Steve about tomorrow. I was still kind of dreading meeting up with him, but I didn't want to see Lyn-z mad at me again. Then it was just Mikey to talk too. F*ck, I'm not looking forward to that conversation.

It was about 5 to 12 and I needed to sleep. I shut down the laptop and sunk deeper into the bed and closed my eyes.

"Daddy?"

My eyes opened up to a tiny sized person standing with the door wide open letting the bathroom light gleam in. She was sobbing as she called out to me.

"Bandit, what's up hunny?" I asked pushing myself up off the bed so i sat upright to properly see her. "Did you have a bad dream or something?"

I watched her as her head lifted up and then dropped back down a couple times.

"Aw Bee, come here pumpkin." I said getting onto the floor and nealing down to give her a cuddle.

She started to hobble over dragging a blanket by her side and Harry clenched in her fist. She hung her arms out like I did and I sat her down on my knee as we hugged.

"Would you like some warm milk?" I asked tilting my head down in sight of hers.

No reply, but after a few seconds I felt her head of loose hair rub up and down my torso as she gave a simple nod.

She detached herself from our hug as she put down the blanket leaving lieing down on the floor along with Harry.

I stood up and took her small hand in my own as we walked to the kitchen, switching on lights as we went. I picked her up as we arrived to the kitchen and sat her down on top of the work surface. I crouched down to the cupboards below the work top and pulled out a spotty sippy cup for her and a spiderman mug for myself. I set them out next to her and unscrewed the lid to Bee's cup as she yawned and rubbed her eyes. I turned my back to her as i opened the fridge door and pulled out the plastic carton of milk. Kicking the fridge door as I turned with my foot, I unscrewed the bottle top and began to pour it into my mug then into her own cup. I set the carton down before picking up both cups and taking them to the microwave.

I switched it on and it began to hum as the plate turned inside. I walked away from it to go and screw the top back on the carton and put it back in the fridge.

I went back to Bee. I leant over the counter and rested both my arms either side of her and leant in for a kiss.

"What was your dream about then Bee?" I asked as I pulled away looking her right in the eye.

"There were monsters daddy and they were being mean." She sniffled rubbing her nose.

"Aw Bee, mommy and daddy won't let anyone be mean to you okay. They were just being silly monsters." I said softly before the microwave shut off the humming and then replaced it with with a piercing beep.

She nodded again wiping away small tears. I helped her as I rubbed her cheek with the side of my finger and smiled sympathetically at her.

I then turned away and took the mug and cup out of the microwave.

I set both down and began to screw the lid on top of Bee's cup before lifting a little slide reveling out a straw. She took it from next to her and the both of started to chug down the warm milk. I lowered my mug after and Bee began to laugh.

"What, what's funny?" I asked cracking a little giggle myself.

She put her finger over the top of her lips just below her nose. She kept giggling as I tried to work out what she meant. I pulled out one of the kitchen draws and grabbed a spoon from the tray resting inside. I looked at myself as her giggles got louder.

I had a milk-tash - great.

I began smiling and pulling funny faces as I turned to her again setting the spoon back down.

After funny faces, a tickle fight and some talking, we put the cups in the sink and headed back to my room switching off the lights again as we went.

I turned on the side lamp as she picked up the blanket and giraffe she set down earlier. I shoved back the sheets and I climbed into bed lifting up the duvet as Bandit climbed in too wrapping herself up with the blanket she'd brought passing Harry to me.

I dropped the duvet and let it fall on top of her as I cuddled her giving Harry back as she watched me kiss him and stroke his back. He stank like hell!

The two of us fell asleep after a few minutes.

Harry, Bandit, Me, Lyn-z - that's how we slept, close together bunched up in a king sized bed.

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Okay so i haven't read this so called 'milk fic' that everybody goes on about but if something i said is involved then.. .. .. I guess your screwed.

I just wanted Gee to look after her after a bad dream and that kind of stuff :(