Without You Is How I Disappear

Goodnight Pumpkin

{Mikey's P.O.V}
Linds brought Bandit closer into her chest and hugged her tight making small whispers in her ear.

She was nodding along every few seconds and wiping tears from her cheeks occasionally, sniffling as she began to end her sobs.

Bandit twisted round and wrapped her arms around the neck of her mom. Lindsey rubbed her arms along her back and kissed her cheek sweetly.

"Goodnight pumpkin, love you loads and loads; to the moon and back a hundred times and even more!" Lyn-z whispered releasing herself from their mother daughter hug.

"Night, night mommy. Love you to the moon and back a billion and katrillion times!" Bandit whispered back wiping away the last few tears as her lip began to stumble some more.

Lyn-z gave her one final kiss before Bandit hopped off the hospital bed and burst into tears again running to Gerard.

He climbed off the chair swiftly and bent down to the floor on one knee as Bandit came and tucked her hands on his chest as he wrapped himself round her.

We were all a complete mess.

Gerard was blubbering his eyes out as Bandit ran to him. Lindsey was wheezing grabbing as much air as possible through gritted teeth as she tried to silence her cries. Tears ran down my cheeks two at a time as my lip stumbled.

Lindsey was getting worse. She tried to hide it when we came but it wasn't as easy anymore to just look straight past. She was looking sick. Bandit might not have seen but I had. She couldn't get up as much. Gerard said she couldn't go further then the bathroom in her room. He was getting worried and so was I.

Things were going from bad to worse.

"Goodnight hunny, get some sleep okay? Daddy loves you so, so, so much!" Ge stumbled out before adding: "I'm sorry me and mommy aren't there but soon you'll have a little brother and we can all play together, okay?"

"Okay daddy" Bandit whispered grabbing one last hug from Gerard.

He kissed her hairline passionately as a few tears continued streaming down his face before eventually releasing her.

She waved goodbye as did Lindsey and Gerard then wrapped her hand around mine as we walked holding hands out of the room.

Harry was clutched to her chest as tears continued to flow down her rosey cheeks.

My own tears began to grind to a halt as only stains were left.

We walked down the corridors and headed out of the hospital and toward the car.

"You tired, shotgun?" I asked knowing the answer already.

She waited a few moments then wiped her eyes with the fist she held the giraffe in and nodded.

"Okay, where would you like to sleep tonight little one?" I asked in a gentle tone.

I watched her as I escorted her to the car and saw as her shoulders lifted then dropped heavily again resulting in her shrugging.

A small sigh released from my lips as we crossed the car park and met my 'range rover sport: 2008' as I opened the back car door and watched as she silently climbed in fastening her seat belt without making a single sound.

I climbed into the front and turned the engine over, looking up at the mirror and watching as she rested her head against the window and bringing her legs up to get comfortable.

Within a few miles, I looked up again at the mirror and noticed Bandit fast asleep.

10 more minutes in utter silence and I parked up on the driveway. I pulled the keys out of the ignition and silently got out walking over to the back door as I picked Bandit up and rested her head on my shoulder walking to the front door and locking the car behind me.

Frank's car was outside parked up on the curb.

My keys were in my pocket so I decided to ring the door bell.

Seconds later, Frank came to the door drowsy and tired and let me past through into my own house.

I waltzed straight past him and went upstairs to the guest bedroom where Bandit occasionally slept. He followed, shutting the front door softly behind me. He walked into the room and, in silence, dragged the duvet down the bed as I lay her down. We then moved to the end of the bed and took off Bandit's pink, glittery trainers before pulling the sheets back up over her.

Frank left the room first and hung around out side the door as I turned the lamp on and followed him out closing the door quietly as I left.

"How is she?" He asked instantly as we met in the hallway.

We continued to walk back downstairs as the conversation continued.

"Linds isn't looking so good. The last few days, she's been looking like hell." I sighed.

"Cr*p!" He cursed.

I frowned in agreement.

"Gerard?" He asked curiously.

I made a murmur sound as we made our way down the stairs.

"Ah." He remarked.

"How are the kids?" I asked trying to lighten the mood.

"Fine. Jamia's friend is over there with her while I came to check on how things were going. Sorry, I let myself in." Which meant he found a hair grip and had used it to pick the lock.

"Haven't you been going down?" I asked curios.

His mouth dropped open as if he was about to start to say something but frowned as he softly shook his head.

I explained what little I knew and he had tears well up in his eyes.

Repeating it made my stomach turn and drop.

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Hi.

I need to sleep but I'm not tired and hey it's Friday so it's not like I have to get up early.
My phone is on 16% change and I'm already lying in bed so getting up to put it on charge is not an option.

Also, in February I'm going to see Frank Iero with the Patients on the taking back sunday tour! I'm so happy and excited even tho it's months and months away. I know what I'm going to wear and give to him if I get to go actually meet him. I cant wait.