Can't Forget

Chapter 5

JJ woke up and realized that she was not alone in bed. She opened her eyes and looked around and saw that she was in Ko's room. She turned and saw Ko and breathed a sigh of relief. Her head was killing her so she eased out without waking Ko and headed to the kitchen for some Gatorade and Advil. She got that and then went out to her truck and got her bag. As she was headed to the bathroom she saw BG's truck pull in the yard. She quickly went into the bathroom and stayed quiet listening to him move around. When she heard him go upstairs she started the shower and got in. She could kill Chase for getting BG involved, she needed to text Chase and let him know she was okay pissed at him but okay. I mean he didn't have to call Ko she could have slept it off in her truck , but then again he was looking out for her safety and that meant something to her.
BG pulled in the drive and he was dog tired and just ready to crash, although he was afraid that JJ was gonna run again, guess that's a good thing that he kept her keys, now knowing her if she still did the same thing she probably gave a set to Ko so he's gonna go get them from where Ko keeps the extra sets of keys and go crash in his bedroom. He knows Amber is gone from his house and the sheriff has the keys and Jon is changing the locks and codes so all should be good there. He can't believe that Amber blocked JJ's number and he never figured it out. He had no reason to think any thing like that cause they were friends, or he thought they were. He needs to figure it out but he's too sleepy to think much more about it. So he takes both sets of keys and locks them up and smiles, JJ won't be sneaking out now.
JJ towel driers her hair and she braids it and goes and starts the coffee cause she hears Ko getting up. She fixes his coffee and sets it on the table and when he walks in and kisses the top of her head he tells her she is an angel. JJ laughs and tells him he must still be asleep that no one would ever accuse her of being an angel.
Ko laughs and said," that is true doll, now you want to talk about last night or are we gonna pretend that seeing BG again didn't send you in a tailspin that made you drink like you haven't done in quite some time, also we need to talk about the video that is on social media of you and Chase during his performance."
JJ said,"Ko you are my brother and I love you but no I really don't want to talk about it. I was just trying to forget and not feel the pain of how I had just been slapped in the face again that he chose her over me and how he wasn't there for me like he promised he would be. I just wanted to be able to sleep without seeing his soul piercing green eyes and how it hurt when he left the bar that night and how if he had stayed then none of that would have happened. Hell we were supposed to be celebrating me passing the boards and achieving my dreams of being a nurse. That night was something that we had planned for years. He was supposed to take me home and he chose to leave with Amber and told me that he would make sure someone would make sure I got home okay. I still don't know what I'm supposed to say after that, I mean, do I look at him and say I forgive you for thinking with your dick cause while you were off fucking Amber I got the living shit beat out of me by your buddy that you told to take care of me and make sure I got home safe because I wouldn't sleep with him. I was taken care of that night he made sure that I couldn't work for a while after I had just realized my dream of being a nurse. Do I say, oh I forgive you for not taking my calls that night and when I did call Amber you laughed when I told her I was scared and she told me that you had made your choice and it wasn't me and that led to another round of beating. So yeah Ko is that what I'm supposed to do? Just tell me how I'm supposed to forget cause I have damn well tried for the last 5 years. And Chase well I don't know, I thought it might be time to try to move on and build a life for myself because I am 27 years old and I want a family and someone to love me and think that I am the best damn thing in his world. But no I didn't get any of that last night, I probably ruined any chance I had with Chase or should I say BG ruined it. I don't get it Ko how does he get the happily ever after and I'm stuck with being alone cause I'm tired of coming home to an empty house and I'm tired of seeing my friends have babies and being in weddings and being asked when was I planning on settling down. Do you have any fucking answers cause if so I would love to hear them."
Kolby stood up and hugged JJ and said," I think it's damn well time you had answers but I can't give them to you. It's time you hashed this out with BG cause you won't ever be able to move on until you do, you may be surprised at what you find out. There have been some things come to light in the last 24 hours that none of us knew and it makes more sense."
JJ said," I don't want to hear it Ko nothing can change the fact that the one person in this world who promised me to always be there for me and who said he would always have my back didn't, he walked out and chose to go get his dick wet instead of staying with me, celebrating the one thing that I had dreamed about since I was a little girl. Hell Ko he had kept me going all the times I wanted to quit. He was the one who I called when I was homesick and didn't think I could make it and the night of my results he walked out with his arm around her and she gave me that smirk. Then when I needed him the most next to losing my parents he laughed at me and I can't forget. I hear his laugh in my dreams and it was something I had always loved but that night it haunts me to this day in my dreams , so no I can't let it go cause I can't forget."