Secrets |Sidemen FF|

.Chapter 13.

Josh's POV.

I look down at the unused needle and sigh. "Not now, later." I whisper before grabbing my bag and heading to school. I don't know anymore, I miss mum, I miss dad, and it's Christmas soon, how can I cope? When you two just left me.

I close my front door and walk down my pathway, the sun in the sky, shining bright. It was noon, I was coming in at lunch. No reason why, just because I'm lazy and only woke up like an hour ago, the sky kind of purple whilst orange streaks spread out, making the whole place light. Maybe I can find the light one day and not be confined in darkness and loneliness.

I reach the school and walk through the gates, and then the doors, I walk over to my locker, seeing Ethan a few rows down. I shake my head before unlocking my locker and grabbing some books I know I'll need for last lesson. I look down at Ethan and see that he had his sleeve rolled up, my eyes widened.

There where two cuts on his wrist and a name, a girls name. 'Emily' was jagged on his wrists, he suddenly wiped his eyes and pulled his sleeve down, before grabbing a bottle of I'm guessing beer out of his locker and necking it.

"I miss you." I here him whisper before placing the bottle in the locker and slamming it shut and then heading down the hall to the cafeteria. Does Ethan harm himself? I knew he drank a lot, but I never knew. Jesus. Some people's lives are just as messed as mine. And who is that 'Emily' person? Maybe his mum? Or girlfriend?

I will never know.

I start to walk towards the hallway, the abandoned hallway, and I sigh, I don't see why it's abandoned, a lot of people think it's haunted, which is bullshit. If it was haunted wouldn't the whole school be haunted. I walk towards it and as I do I heard crying. I furrow my eyebrows.

I look over the lockers and into the hallway, I see two people. One crying. "WHERE WERE YOU?" I hear a familiar voice shout at the other. I squint my eyes and instantly sigh. Seeing it was Kacey. "You don't need to know." I hear Vikks voice sigh as he wiped his eyes. "I DON'T CARE, TELL ME WHERE YOU WERE LAST NIGHT, WHERE YOU WITH THAT CUNT?" "Don't call him that." Vikk spits and I see Kacey push Vikk up against the wall, Kacey grabbing Vikks mouth.

"You are making me angry baby. You know what happens when daddy gets Angry." He says, Vikk tried pushing him away. But Kacey pushed him further against the wall. "That's IT!" I shout and walk in the hallway, Kacey instantly turns his head and drops Vikk. Vikk falling to the ground and didn't move, just sobbed like all of the life he had had been taken out of him.

"Get away from him, or me and JJ will fuck you up even more." I threaten and he shakes his head. "Is that a threat?" He asks and I chuckle and shake my head. "It's not a threat. Its a promise." I say darkly and he instantly ran away from me. I look over at Vikk, his body was shaking as he sobbed quietly. He had himself tucked up into a ball.

"Are you okay?" I ask, kneeling down beside him. "I thought it was going to happen again." He whispers and I shake my head, I pull him over so his head rested in my lap as he just curled up and sobbed. "I'll never let that happen Vikk." I say and he nods. Just staring across at the lockers, tears falling still.

"What was it about?" I ask him and he sighs. "He wanted to know where I was last night because he wanted me." He says, like it was the most casual thing in the world. "Want you?" "If I was at my house he would of come there and dragged me back to his to use me.. Again." He says and I just nod, looking down at him and stroking his cheek with my thumb. Trying to make him feel more, I don't know safe?

"He's left me alone a lot more since I've known you guys." He whispers. "But he sometimes would drag me back to his every night. Hurt me, every night. Use me." He says with furrowed eyebrows. I see JJ at the entrance of the hallway and his eyes instantly widened as he ran over to us, instantly crouching down next to both of us as his face was filled with sadness.

"Is he okay? I saw Kacey coming out of this hallway looking smug so I know what happened." JJ explained to me and I nod. "He almost.. Did it again. Luckily I was going through here to go to the toilets." I tell JJ and he nods.he looks down at Vikk and sighs. I pick Vikk up in my arms and pass him to JJ. Knowing they are pretty close. JJ held him in his arms as Vikk just cried. He looked truly broken. So broken.

"I don't know how much more of this I can take." Vikk sighed. Wiping his eyes. "I'll stay with you, whatever happens." JJ says and I nod. "I just wander when I'm gunna grow my wings and fly away you know." He whispers and I felt my heart shatter a bit. "What do you mean fly away?" JJ asks but Vikk doesn't reply. He just looks down.

"You picture yourself with wings?" I ask and he nods. "I drew myself. Vein I know, but look." He says and grabs his bag, before pulling out a sketch pad. He flickered through pages, before stopping.

He placed the book down and it was a kind of comic styled drawing (Like Wolf Among us style) of a really tall bridge, and a river flowing through it with plants and birds and flowers on a grass bank, the sky was beautifully layered with different oranges and purples and reds which complimented everything.

And then at the top of the bridge was a beautiful angle. It's wings a beautiful white which spread almost all the way across the bridge, you could tell it was Vikk, his arms spread out either side of him so his body was like a cross. And he was looking straight ahead of him, his toes hanging off the edge of the bridge.

I furrowed my eyebrows at the drawing, it was amazing, but why did he draw himself on the bridge, maybe his was of flying away is praying that he can jump and fly far down into the water below him and hoping he will never see the world again.

"Wow, That's beautiful.."
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Merry Christmas everyone, I hope you guys get everything you want, I'm absolutely gassed for Christmas, and I hope you guys are aswell, another year writing, I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. I'll talk to you guys soon. X

Love you allXxX
Sammie=3