Secrets |Sidemen FF|

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Josh's POV,

I stared at my hands, his hand clasped with mine, I just nodded small. "Let's get high?" I ask and he just laughed. Before nodding. "What we doing." "Another Pill?" I ask and he just shrugs. "Weed?" I ask him and he tilted his head. "Yeah, sure." He smiles and I smile back before nodding.

I go over to my draw and pull out the bag, "fuck, I'm getting low." I whisper, even if this doesn't give me a big high, I need to have it, otherwise I'll fucking OD on heroine again. "Fuck sakes" I whisper, feeling suddenly angry at myself "whats up?" "Look, there's hardly any left." "How much is there?" He asks and I look at the bag.

I count up how many grams it could actually be. "Urm, 5 grams, I think." "We'll just mix it with Baci or something." "What tobacco?" I ask and he nods. "Not a bad idea." I say to him and he just laughs. "You never thought of that before?" He asks and I shake my head.

"Well I don't have any now, so let's just do it straight." I say and he nods. "Ohhh, I have a bong, let's do shotties, they'll get us both more fucked."

"Sure."

*after doing it.*

"My knees are warmmmmm." Tobi shouted in panic, making me screech out with laughter. We where next to each other on my bed, lying down. Everything was going wavey.

"Oh my god lets get water and throw it out your window." Tobi spoke, getting up but then failing on top of me, making me giggle loudly, and him do the same. He was definitely high.

It worked for both of us. "You're fucked Tobi." "Nahnahnah." He spoke, suddenly in an Australian accent, a very shitty accent. I opened my legs, letting him move his legs in between mine and his head resting on my upper chest. We both creased in laughter.

"You're really pretty, did you know that?" Tobi asked and I felt my heart jump but I just giggled. "Says you." "Nah but you're really pretty." "Why thank you." I say once again, before we both stare into each other's eyes.

We once again, burst into laughter.

He buried his head in my chest as he laughed, making me smile down at him. He looked up, before sitting up. "Thank you Josh, you saved me." He spoke and I just shake my head. "I never saved you." "I know Simon, saved me. But you have saved me as well, I stopped cutting since becoming closer with you." He spoke and I just nod.

"Well I'm glad, I hate seeing you hurt." I say and he nods, before looking down. "Are you okay?" He asks me and I laugh. "Why?" "Jack almost persuaded you to get some today." He spoke and I just sigh. Looking down, don't think about it josh. "It's jack, he wants money, that's it." I spoke and Tobi just shook his head. "I don't want him hurting you again." "Only reason I went down was cause I was tag teamed." I spoke up and he nodded. "Well I'll be your teammate." Tobi spoke and I just smiled and shook my head.

"Tobi, you don't wanna get involved with this shit." "I'm already involved, I don't care anymore, I wanna die anyway, I'll do anything." He spoke out and I shook my head. "That's not a good mindset." "Well that's what I feel like, that's what that stupid prick has made me feel" "I would of killed him if he didn't leave." I spoke and he just laughed.

"You would of kept me away from hell if you did." He said, a crack in his voice. "You really have helped me, I know you don't think it, but I promise you, you have." He spoke, grabbing my hand, I smiled at his hand as he interlocked it with mine. "I have to go back there soon." He whispers, I look up and see a tear threatening to escape his eyes.

"No you don't, as I said, stay." "If I stay He will just kill me if I go back." "Than stay with me, forever." I say and he just smiled. "Forever?" He said and I nod.