Secrets |Sidemen FF|

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Simons POV,

I was in English, Rebecca sat next to me, myself against the wall, it was 4th lesson, lunch being after this.

They hadn't stopped laughing all fucking lesson.

"It's like they are fucking or something." Rebecca spat as she looked over at them, Josh and Tobi both almost in tears laughing. "Boys, be quiet, last warning." "I'm sorry it's ju-" Josh cut himself off by his own laughter.

I rolled my eyes, that prick took him away from me. They where laughing all the way through science as well, and also getting very close and touchy, for fuck sakes. "We should do something to him, he deserves it." Rebecca says and I contemplate it for a second, before shaking my head. "Tobi would tell Josh." I think back to her and she shakes her head. "Than make it so He cant, tell josh." Rebecca whispered to me. She started giggling as she leaned on my shoulder.

"What do you mean?" I ask and she just smiled. "Don't be stupid Simon." She spoke and I furrowed my eyebrows. "Get rid of him Simon, you know what I mean." She spoke, grabbing my arm and squeezing down on my arm. "Bex." "Come on Simon, look, look what he's done, he's taken him away from us, like we are gunna get him back any time soon. We need to take matters into our own hands." She spoke, and I sighed, shaking my head and looking down.

"We can't kill him." "You know we can. I have a plan."

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JJ
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I walked into school with Vik. We didn't speak of what had happened this morning. I didn't want to. "JJ?" He asked and I nodded. "Yes?" I ask and he looked down, grabbing my hand. He stopped us and made me look down. "I know this is really hard, but, can you fight brad and Barry off? Try and be you? It's scary when it's not you." "I'm sorry I have this Vik, trust me, I'm trying." I say and he smiles small.

"I'm not thinking of you any differently before you think so." He says and I nod. "I know, I'd be scared of... me.. as well." "It's not that I'm scared, it's just, a lot." He smiles, rubbing his hand on my shoulder. "I love you." He smiles and I smile back. "I love you too beautiful."

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Harry (three days later)
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Me and Ethan where sat at the table, Marie not being here since she wanted to hang out with Sam and Po. "Did you hear that Sam and Tobi broke up?" I say and Ethan shook his head. "wait what?" "Yeah, they broke up this a few days ago. Marie told me." "Why?" "It wasn't working I guess." I say and Ethan sighed.

"Man I'd kill to have my girlfriend back." He whispered and I furrowed my eyebrows. "What do you mean?" I ask and he shook his head. "I miss her so much man, I'm so stupid for writing her name on my wrist. If anything that'd hurt her even more, knowing I've hurt myself because of her." He spoke and I sighed. "Can I see?" I ask and he nods.

He rolled his sleeves up, and my eyes widened, it wasn't massive, just the word 'Emily' carved into his wrist, small. "At least it's not that big." I say and he nodded. "It fucking stung, cause I used glass from a vodka bottle I'd smashed and it stung like a bitch." He whispered, I winced for him.

I know how it feels without it.

"How is your anxiety going?" Ethan asks and I smile. "Okay actually, the pills aren't working as much, but I haven't been having many panic attacks since I told Marie, so yeah." I speak and he nods.

Should I tell him about the cuts.

I mean, I'm closer to him than anyone else in this group. "I've found a different way to cope with it though." I spoke and Ethan nodded. "Oh yeah? What's tha-" "hey guys." I hear, I look up and see Tobi was there, Josh with him. "Oh, wow, you're sitting here?" I ask Josh and josh sighed. "I guess, he pulled me over here." "No I didn't!" Tobi exclaimed, slapping him playfully.