Secrets |Sidemen FF|

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Tobi's POV

We were all sat in the cafeteria. Everyone silent as they all say thinking about yesterday's events. And Josh relapsing.

The girls finding out by Harry telling Marie and Marie telling Po and Sammie, which I know josh doesn't mind, cause they're all apart of the group.

But he hasn't spoken since this morning.

And his hands were more shaky than ever.

Josh was a skittish mess also.

Every noise someone made he would jump, or flinch away. "How are you Josh?" Ethan asked. Josh looking up, before nodding, looking over at me and then back down at his hands. Picking at his fingers to try and stop himself from feeling so.. well, this. What ever he is feeling now

"I'm sorry josh." Sammie smiled sadly at him. Josh only nodding. Nobody knowing what to do, I didn't know what to do. I've never seen him like this before.

I hear the cafeteria door open. Seeing Simon walk in. Josh shook his head instantly. His legs now bouncing along with his hands shaking, I grabbed his hand, him nodding as he tried to calm himself down. He looked over before spotting all of us. Him smiling and coming over, but slowly realising Josh's state of mind as he does come over.

"Is everyone okay." "Yeah, fine." "Josh?" Simon asked, josh shook his head. Looking down as he gripped onto my hand tightly. "It's okay love. Why are you hear Simon." I say assertively to Simon. Simon staring at josh. Before looking over at JJ.

"Well last night. I went with Kacey, down to the Police station. And after persuading. He said out of his love for vik.. he handed himself in." Simon spoke.

Josh's shaking stopped.

JJs eyes widened.

Everyone's hearts stopped.

"What?" JJ asked. Looking up. Josh also looking up at Simon. His grip still being tight. "He handed himself in." Simon said. His eyes wide and electric.

"What is this, some sick joke?" Josh whispered. Simon shaking his head. "Look, I promise you, I went there myself. He handed himself in. I persuaded him to. I said the one thing you could do is hand yourself in, for fuck sakes Viks dying and it's all your fault." He whispered.

I laughed out in relief, as JJ stared at Simon, a faint smile on his lips. "Simon." "I promise you." Simon spoke, dead serious.

"He's telling the truth. Trust me." Josh whispered. I felt my heart start to beat once again, this time going ecstatic as happiness overwhelmed everyone.

"I- I." "Call Vik!" Po exclaimed to JJ. JJ shaking his head. "No, I'm going to tell him at the hospital, you all coming?" JJ asked, everyone nodding apart from josh. Who sat there quietly. "Come on Josh, it's okay." I say as he looked up, and then down at our intertwined hands. And nodding slowly. Getting up and grabbing his bag.

"It's okay, no one will find out." I say to him, him nodding slowly. "Find out what?" Simon asked. I snapped my head to him. "Don't try me." I spat at him. Him instantly nodding and shutting his mouth as me and josh followed everyone out of the cafeteria.

Josh was very out of it still

He was so scared of everything.

"I'll drive us." I say to josh. Josh nodding as he let go of my hand and going back to picking at his fingers.

"It'll be okay josh." I smile. Before I get in the car.

He got in as well. Putting his seatbelt on gently. Before starting to pick at his fingers again. "Josh. Stop picking at your fingers love. You're gunna hurt yourself." I say to him. He nodded. Yet continued to pick at them.