Secrets |Sidemen FF|

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Josh POV,

"I'm going to fucking kill them!" I exclaim as I scroll through the texts, tobi hadn't talked since I managed to get him out of his bath. He just stared at his hands as I scrolled through the texts.

Whoever is doing this is disgusting.

"I'm going to block their number." I say to him and he just sighed. "We'll never find out who it is." "Trust me, I will." I say and he shakes his head. "You keep my phone." He says and I furrow my eyebrows.

"What?" "You keep my phone, don't block the number, just keep reading what they keep texting you. I'll just. I'll just." "Hey." I say, seeing him suddenly getting very upset. I place his phone on the edge of the bed and go over to him, him suddenly burying his head in my chest.

I slowly wrapped my arms around him as I started to feel his whole body shake, him sobbing quietly. "Hey, it's okay." "It's not Josh, I don't know what to do anymore, why me?" "Why us?" I ask and he just sighs, before sitting up, staring directly into my eyes.

His eyes where filled with tears just waiting to fall.

He looked down, staring at his fingers that he was now picking, I stared at him, feeling my heart slowly break. Break like his broken body. 

"Don't, don't leave me... please." I whisper, he looked up at me, before slowly grabbing my hands. I felt tears start to prick my eyes. I hardly ever cry. But this guys making me feel some type of way recently.

A type of love I've never experienced before.

"I won't. I'm staying right here. By your side."

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I was in school, Tobi not being in yet as he didn't need to be, his lessons not starting till 3rd, myself on the other hand, have a full day ahead of me.

I had Tobi's phone in my pocket, i felt it vibrate as I walked to my locker, I looked around, seeing if anyone was on their phones. But nearly half the people in the hall was. So that wasn't helpful at all.

I walked to my locker, before wiping my eyes slowly, breathing heavily.

I'm struggling, hard.

I've almost contacted jack a few times.

But I need to be strong, just distract myself on other things. I can do this.

Can I do this?

"Hey." I hear, I look over to where it was and I see it was Ethan. "Hey." "You alright?" He asks and I just sigh, before shaking my head. "Honestly, no, but I'm okay." "You want it again, don't you?" He asks and I just sigh, before nodding slowly, looking down.

"You're strong, be strong. For Tobi."

"I know, it's just. It's crazy. It's literally one of the worst thing I've had to deal with in my life, other than, you know." I say and he just nods. "Trust me, I know what you mean. Addiction is horrible." He says and I nod. "Trust me, I know." I say and he just sighs.

"Is Tobi doing more than weed?" Ethan asks and I just look down, smirking to myself before shaking my head. "Everything he does he wants to do." I say and Ethan furrows his eyebrows. "So he has done more." "Why'd you care?" I ask, making him just chuckle.

"Always defensive innit josh." "Yeah well don't ask me such shit questions and maybe I won't be." I spoke, seeing him just smile at me. "Them drugs really fucked you up." "What you say?" I spat. Standing up fully, I am taller than him, but it's obvious he didn't care at all.

"Youre gunna make Tobi just like you, a fucking train wreck, you fell in love with him because he isn't you, but the way he's going he'll end up just like you, drugged up and lonely." He spat. I felt rage almost overpower me. What the fuck is he saying?