Secrets |Sidemen FF|

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Tobi

Simon looked over at us, Josh and Brad leaving the cafeteria. "Is brad one of his-" "personalities? Yeah. They're. They're coming out a lot more." Harry states. I furrow my eyebrows, nodding. "Yeah, I hope JJ can control it." "JJs strong, he would be able to." I say to Ethan, Ethan sighing.

"I don't know, not about this one. I think that he won't be able to deal with it." Josh says and Sam sighs. "Man why does everything have to be so fucked up." "Cause life is fucked." Harry spoke, staring at the table.

Vik doesn't deserve this. He has had such a shit life with everything, with Kacey, his mother. His dad leaving him. Man that shit must fucking suck. And how he used to get bullied, bad. Just makes me feel so. Sad. How can he still be alive, and so strong.

He doesn't deserve this.

"What did the doctors say to you?" I hear Marie ask, I look up, seeing she said it to Simon. Simon was about to respond before the bell went off, cutting him off of anything he was going to say.

"Do you all have a free period?" Simon asks and I shake my head. Only Po and Sammie nodding. "Yeah we do." Po says delicately. Looking down.

"I think you should go with him, he's in an unstable headset at the moment." I hear Ethan say to Po, everyone standing up. "I'll go, I only have french anyways." I say, knowing Po really wouldn't want to go back to his house. "Are you sure?" "Yeah, of course.." I say, looking back up at Simon. Simon looking down, tears still coming down his face. "Okay, sure thing." She says. I nod. Finally getting up and grabbing my stuff. Before grabbing the knife from the table. "Let's let me have that for now." I say, looking down at it, it was very sharp.

"No, I'll take it." I hear Sammie voice echo through my ears, her walking towards me with her hand out. "Why?" I ask and she only raises her eyebrows at me, my body going cold as I realised why she wanted it. I just nodded, before giving her the knife. And looking back at Simon.

"Right. Your house."

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I sat there. In Simons room. On one side of his bed, Looking down at my arms whilst he was on the opposite side to me, Staring in front of him, us two back to back against each other.

We didn't say anything to each other. We just. Stared. And looked at each other every once and a while before going back to looking down at the ground.

"It's all my fault." Simon says quietly, and I sigh, falling back on his bed. "You're not wrong there." I say and I see Simon furrow his eyebrows. "Sorry?" "The others might not blame you, but I do." I say and he sighed shakily.

"Why?" "Because none of this wouldn't of happened if you didn't want to get a reaction from Josh." I say and he shook his head. Falling back so his body was next to me.

"I never tried to get his attention." He says quietly and I shook my head. "That's bullshit Simon. Why else would you have been with Kacey. Cause you know how much Josh despises that kid, and it would get a big reaction out of him. But I guess it was too much for Vik, mentally and physically." I say honestly to him. The room landing in a silence that felt awkward on the opposite side.

Myself on the other hand was loving the fact that he felt awkward.

"Everything you have done. Is to have a reaction from Josh." I say. Him sighing. "I know." "No I'm not finished. You beat up Vik because he liked Josh and wasn't on your side, you tried to get me to commit suicide to get attention off of Josh, you was so crazy to even find out what cologne he wore so you could make me think he was cheating on me with you. Everything you have ever done since Josh cutting your relationship off is harmful to yourself and everyone else. You, not her." I say and he shook his head.