Secrets |Sidemen FF|

.Chapter 24.

Viks POV //3 days Later//

I walked into school, JJ holding my hand, making me smile. Josh is apparently aloud to go to school today, which I think everyone's glad about, after him telling us his story a few days ago, it hurt. It hurt all of us, and I feel so bad for him, so much shit he's been through in 2 years time. How could he cope?

Well... He clearly couldn't cope anymore.

I just keep thinking, what would of happened if he didn't come to school to say goodbye to us, what if he'd just.. Injected himself with the drugs, and just sat there, crying, alone, and feeling the venomous chemicals attack your bloodstream, and crumble away the world right in front of his eyes.

I'm so glad he at least saw us, and wasn't completely alone, and hasn't left us. "You okay?" JJ asks and I nod. "I'm just thinking about Josh a lot. That's all." I say and he nods, kissing my head. "I know, what's happened to him is truly awful." JJ states, making me nod, I reach my locker and put my unneeded books in and take my needed books out. JJ waiting for me.

"Do, do you think we could of noticed sooner?" I ask, shutting the locker, "I don't know, I don't think so, he was so good at hiding it." JJ says, before we head to his locker. "Yeah. But he was almost too good at hiding it, like I think back now and I definitely should of asked if he was okay. Mentality and all, I don't know." I say, JJ just nods and discards his unseeded booms into his locker and takes out his other books, before putting the books In his bag.

"The thing is though, the more you look back on it the more secretive he was about his life. He only cared when something really serious happened, only got involved when something serious happened, was always quite distant as well, the only people he wasn't so distance to was Simon and Po for that matter. And maybe Tobi, but Tobi's super close to everyone." JJ elaborates on his thoughts and I just nod.

"I don't know, what lessons do you have next?"

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Tobi's POV.
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Drip..drip..drip..drip..

My left arm leaned over the bathtub, a small metal object laying delicately on the tips on my fingers, let go of the sheet of metal in my hand, it spinning slowly, it flicking some blood off it as it lands on the ground, facing me, blood covering half of the tiny sharp object. The dripping of the blood that came out of my right arm landed in the filled up bath tub. It turning the colour a musty red.

Satisfied.

I look at my arm and felt tears burn at my eyes, everything that's been happening lately, I thought just one cut would help me.. The thing is I haven't don't just one cut, it's never just one cut. My arm, all the way down my elbow to my wrist, had nice neat beaded red lines splashed across. The blood tricked down my arm now like the tears cascading down my face as some of the blood tried getting into the other cuts, but it couldn't, it just got pushed back out by more, and more blood.

I sigh, before slowly lifting myself out of the bath, before I full on start bathing in the blood that was only in my body a few seconds ago. I get out and rinse my arm in the water, making the water darker than it is already. I dry myself down, making sure the bleeding has eventually stopped and then putting on some clothes, some black ripped skinny jeans, a black t shirt and my black leather jacket. I look at myself in the mirror and shake my head before grabbing my BBK snap back and putting it on my head, I brush my teeth and grab my bag.

I go down stairs and head out the door, making sure I have my phone on me. I see Sammie had texted me and I opened it up.

Sam: You okay? Cause I'm still shook about the other day. Xx

Tobi: Yeah I'm good, just still like you, shook up, but I'm doing good, where are you? Xx

Sam: I'm already at school, meet me outside? Xx

Tobi: Sure Babe, see you soon xx

I sigh before putting my phone back in my jean pocket, putting my hands In the pockets of my leather jacket, my head down, I know the way to school off by heart. Luckily not living to far away from the school. I can't tell her I cut again, especially because I did more than 3 cuts, I would tell her if it was 3. But there's at least 17 cuts.

I reached the school quicker than I thought. I looked up and saw Sammie waiting there, she had black ripped jeans on, the same as myself, a different BBK snap back on and she had a white t shirt on which was strange, and a denim jacket on also. A few wristbands on.

She looked really cute, kinda like a skater girl, she had black converse on, which only complimented the outfit, and she only had some eyeliner on and mascara, I like how she doesn't cake herself in makeup, no one needs to wear loads of makeup to cover them true selves, you are beautiful Without makeup.

I go over and hug her tightly, I could see she was about to cry, she has been none stop crying since she heard Josh's story, and I would of stayed over her house last night, but she had to help her mum, as she isn't well at the moment. She held onto me tightly. Making me smile but also feel sad, it was like she never wanted me to go.

"Babe, you okay?" I ask and she nods. "I just.. Every Time I think about Josh my mind goes back to you, when you tried, and it physically makes me sick to think that you would leave. I never want you to leave." She says shakily. "Shhh, calm down, I'm going no where." I tell her and she nods. She departs and looks into my eyes, before giggling slightly. "I love you" "I love you too." I smile back at her before pushing her cap down, making it cover her eyesight.

"Tobi!" She exclaims before giggling. "Come on, let's go to lessons." I laugh, my arm over her shoulder as we head inside. We walk inside before getting our books, and then seeing JJ and Vik. They spot us and walk over to us. "Do you guys know if Josh went back home yesterday or is coming to school, because he was aloud to go home, that's what he said in the group chat." Vik days and Sammie shrugs.

"I'm not sure, all I know is that he can go home but he wanted to stay to make sure everything was properly out of his system." Sam tells everyone, making them nod.

"Gah I hope he's alright."
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I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, it's kinda a filler, if you did please comment, otherwise I'll talk to you all later X

Love you allXxX
Sammie=3