Secrets |Sidemen FF|

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Josh's POV.

The whole room went silent.

All emotions ran to a cold sad realisation as Tobi grabbed his phone and answered it.

"Hello JJ are you okay?" I heard Tobi say and then a muffled voice on the end of the phone. People already starting to put there shoes on. "Okay, do you want us to come to the hospital?" Tobi asked. Everyone now starting to get there shoes and jackets. Tobi walking over the the hall with them and grabbing his shoes with one hand.

"JJ whats happened?" Tobi asked. Putting it on speaker phone as he was putting his shoes on. "Hehadaseizurewhenhewasasleepandi- I." JJs voice screamed into the phone. My heart dropped as Tobi's eyes looked up at me. Panic and almost every emotion plastered onto his face. I grabbed the phone. "JJ calm down, what's happened?"  I speak into the phone. Everyone silent as they listened.

"He- he had- had a seizure- sleeping. Just get to the-the hospital quick please!" He exclaimed. My eyes widened. "Okay, we're on our way okay." I say and JJ hung up on us. I shook my head. "I can't do this." I say. Picturing my parents in that hospital bed. There faces bashed inwards as that car had sped into them both. The heart monitor just beeping continuously. Signifying one thing.

"You can't leave JJ all by himself." Tobi spoke and I shook my head. "He has you." "Barry needs you, now come on." Tobi spoke. Throwing my shoes at me. I put them on reluctantly. Everyone heading out of the door.

"Josh, lock the house." Ethan spoke. Throwing me the keys, me catching them as I would be the last one to come out. I got up. Both of my shoes now on. Shaking my head. "Fuck you Tobi I can't believe this." I spoke as I locked Ethan's house. All of us going into two separate cars.

On our way to that scary scene I'm not ready to muster up the courage to see.

I got into Tobi's car, seeing that Sam, Po and Harry were there already in the backseat. I sat in the passenger seat. Tobi setting off as soon as I closed the door. "I know this is hard for you josh but you've got to be there to support JJ and Vik." Tobi spoke to me, grabbing my hand with the other on the wheel.

"I hate hospitals." "I know but you've got to try." Tobi spoke. I suddenly felt a pear of arms wrap around the chair and then me. Seeing Sam was the one hugging me. "It's okay josh. Everyone understands how hard this is for you. But we all believe you can try again. I promise." Sam spoke to me, I lifted my hands up so it was like I was hugging her back.

I'd never expect her to be so supportive.

"I'm so tired of death." "I know babe but we got to be there. For them." Tobi says. Squeezing my thigh before going back to driving.

"What happened back there with Simon." "Started saying all this stuff about me and Tobi not being compatible and that the drugs have brought me back to being the person that didn't give a fuck." I say, gulping lightly as Sam detached herself from me. "That's not true, you wouldn't be here if you didn't care. You wouldn't want to go because you care that you don't want to see them upset." Sam says and I just shook my head. Looking out the window.

"It reminds me too much of my parents. It's hard for an addict to handle things that turned them to the person they are today." I whisper, staring. At the scenery rushing past us.

Like a blur to my clear vision.

And how everyone started talking yet I just heard almost white noise, sizzling in my ears.

I sat there, looking up at the face that once used to be my mother, and how now it was nothing but bruised flesh and blood. Her whole body shattered on the bed as the doctors worked with her.