Secrets |Sidemen FF|

64

Barry's POV,

Everyone left the room, Vik sighing heavily as he layed his head back on the big cushion. Closing his eyes. "You remember Tobi and Josh?" I ask and Vik nodded. "Only a little. All I remember is that josh is an addict and that Tobi has pretty much saved him and josh has been sober ever since him and Tobi started becoming close." Vik said. My eyes widened at how much he knew. And I almost told him the fact that josh did relapse.

But I thought that would be a pretty crap thing to do considering he thinks josh is stable.

But even I noticed joshs trembling and shaking hands as he non stopped picked at his fingers and looked down the entire time.

"You in a lot of pain?" The doctor asked Vik. Vik sighing. "Yeah, it's just getting worse and worse." He says. I breathed in heavily. Feeling an overwhelming sense of sorrow towards Vik.
He didn't deserve this. He's the victim in every situation.

"Can you remember why you're in here?" I ask and he shook his head. "All I can remember is I hit something with my head and now I'm in here." He says. "Do you remember about your condition?" The doctor asked and Vik shook his head. "I didn't like eating very much." He whispered. So he knew kind of what he had, but doesn't know about him actually having anorexia.

This poor kid has gone through it all.

Rape, a mum that doesn't care about him, anorexia, bullying, abusive boyfriends.

He doesn't deserve this.

"You don't deserve this." I say, dropping my eyebrows and holding Viks hand. Vik sighing. "I don't know JJ." "It's okay Vik." I smile. Kissing him gently on his head. Him smiling at me as I leant back into my seat again.

"I'll give you two a minute." The doctor spoke. I nodded, thanking the doctor as he went outside. Not wanting to intrude us anymore I guess.

"I love you so much JJ." Vik spoke, seeing his eyes go to a glossy sheen. I squeezed his hand. Feeling my eyes instantly react to his as a small burning sensation occurred. "I love you too Vik. I love you to the world and back." I say. Feeling tears fall down my cheeks. But I didn't wipe them. Just let them freefall down my warm skin.

I breathed in heavily. Both of us just starting into each other's eyes. "Do you remember the first time we met." Vik whispered. Looking down at his hands briefly before back up at me. I smiled.

"Yeah I do, can you?" I ask and he nodded slowly. "You saved me from that monster." "I didn't do a good job." "At least you postponed it for a little while." He says. Smiling at me.

"I tried so hard to save you love." "I know you did. I'm so grateful you are in my life." He says. Tears starting to roll down his cheeks now. My hearts continents just squeezing itself out like ringing a wet towel from the soaking water.

I looked down. Feeling the tears just continue to fall down my face quick and effortless. Along with Viks. "Have you tried eating." I ask, trying to voice the conversation, and he nodded. "I ate a whole bowl of cereal this morning, and also ate some chips for lunch." He says. I smiled at him. "That's amazing." "Thank you. I'm really trying." He smiled. All though we were still crying.

"I'm sorry I'm in this situation." He says and I shake my head. "No no no, don't be sorry, don't you ever feel sorry about you being you. We can get through this." I say and he looked down before shaking his head.

"I'm in a lot of pain JJ." He whispered. I winced in pain almost for him. Feeling so much sorrow for him. "I know honey, hopefully it will go away." I say and he sighed shakily, just crying silently in the big bed, the big soft sheets cocooning him in a beautiful safety blanket. That for what ever happens, he will finally have comfort and peace from the tournament that this world has put him through.