Secrets |Sidemen FF|

.Chapter 12.

Simons POV.

I look over at JJ and see his annoyed expression on his face, why has his personality changed drastically?he was literally crying two minutes ago, and now he is acting like he hates the kid.

"Lerone?" Sam instantly stood up and went over to the nurse. "He is doing fine, breathing perfectly, there will be burns on his neck from the rope and he has scars on his writs, but he will be okay." She smiles and I instantly sigh in relief. "Fucker should of been dead." JJ says and my eyes widen. "Nah, get out." Marie spits and I furrow my eyebrows at JJ. "What?" JJ asks, I shake my head, is this kid thick or something.

"You're being disrespectful, you need to stop and leave." Po spits and JJ just sighed before standing up. He looks back at me with teary eyes and I furrowed my eyebrows, what the fuck? "JJ.." Vikk whispers but JJ just runs out.

"Come, he is ready for visitors." The nurse says and we all nod before standing up, "You should be in the bed, and not breathing." I hear the familiar voice explode in my ears and I just shake my head. I can't, not now."I don't care if it's now, reply, go on, speak, you honestly think people care?" She spits and I just bite my lip before entering the room.

And there he was. His eyes where open, but he was staring at his hands, the skin on his neck was ripped from the rope, and his wrist was bandaged. Cuts lay under his skin. "Tobi.." Sam whispers and Tobi looks up, his face filled with guilt. "I'm really sorry I didn't me-" "Don't be sorry.. I know what you did, you didn't want to be here, don't you think that decision is harsh, especially to everyone here, they all care, why do you think you're alive?" She asks and he just sighs.

"I thought nobody would notice." "A lot of people noticed love, I'm not mad, just... Sad." She whispers and he nods, he lifts his arms and gestures for a hug, she instantly went over and hugged him, her quiet sobs muffled. I looked at Po and see she was crying harsh, I went over and hugged her tight. And she hugged me back just as tightly. "I'm never letting go." I whisper in her ear and she nods.

"Urm, where's JJ?" He asks and Ethan sighs. "He was being a prick saying that he never cared and stuff. So we told him to leave." Ethan explains and Tobi nods slowly. "Don't worry, I know what was happening with him." Tobi says, barely audible.

I look back and see Vikk shifting awkwardly back and two, he had his sleeves just past his knuckles, his bony fingers gripping gently on the hem of his sleeves. I just looked down. I feel sorry for him, I feel sorry for Tobi. What even made him go over the edge?

"What made you do it?" Marie whispers and he just looks down. "I...I don't know." He stutters, you could tell he wants us to know, but it was almost like he couldn't. Couldn't utter the words. Because he was too scared to.

Why did he do it, he doesn't deserve hurt, he doesn't deserve anything bad happening to him. But it's happened.

We can't change that.

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Tobi POV /Three days later/
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I walk up the steps to school and sigh, Sammie has been amazing, she's always there for me, talking to me, giving me affection, and just acting like herself, and hasn't changed anything because of what happened, she made me realise that she loves me, so much, and cares a lot. Even with her problems going on.

I see JJ across the hall, he was at his locker, staring at I guess his medication, he just gripped it tightly before throwing it in his locker, his face filled with anger. "Woah woah woah JJ calm down." I say and he looks up at me, his face instantly softened as he sighed. "I'm so sorry, I heard I was being a prick in the hospital I'm so sorry." He says and my eye brows furrow, he heard? Wouldn't he remember?

"Don't worry bout it, why where you so angry just then?" I ask and he just looks down and clenches his fist. "Because them stupid pills aren't working." He spits, suddenly angry again. "JJ, are you sure you're taking them properly?" I ask and he nods. "It says take one three times a day." He says and I shake my head. "I remember you have to take two for it to work effectively." I tell him and he just huffs. "Fuck sakes." "Just take two from now on yeah?" I tell him and he nods.

"Tobi, I'm truly sorry about how I acted." "Seriously don't worry, I understand." "The problem is though is I don't know how I acted, people just told me I was acting horrible." He says and I furrow my eyebrows. "Maybe because of you're DID you switch from different personas? So like, maybe now you're JJ, and when you're angry you're Olajidw?" I suggest and he shrugs. "I don't know Tobi, most probably." He says and I nod.

"I really don't know much about DID but maybe that helps." I tell him, "yeah, I guess it helps, so I have two different people living inside me?" "Well technically yes but your the same person, you just have two different names for your mood swings." I tell him and he nods in realisation. "Thanks Tobi."

"Come on, let's get to lessons."

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Ethan /After school/
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I was sitting on the couch, staring at the empty vodka bottle. The alcohol rushing through my veins as I tried to stop the dizziness, I can't take this shit, I miss her, I miss my parents, but I miss her. So much.

"Ethan." I hear a voice, I look over and I shake my head, not believing my eyes. "Emily?" "Baby, why are you drinking so much?" She asks and I shake my head again. "You died, in the car crash." "What car crash." "Baby, oh my god baby your here." I exclaim And stand up.

"You need to stop drinking." She whispers and I shake my head. "I can't, the need, it gives me an adrenalin rush." "You need to stop baby." She whispers and I try and walk over to her, she steps back. "No, I'm okay, I can change." I whisper and she shakes her head. "I'm sorry Eth." She closes her eyes.

"Baby, don't leave me again." I whisper and try and walk towards her, but I couldn't. "I love you baby." "Emily!" "Bye baby!" "EMILY NO!" I scream, I try and run towards her and it worked, I went to hug her, but she just disappeared.

"NO!" I screamed and threw the vodka bottle that was in my hand at the wall, it smashing against the wall, and the pieces of glass splashing out across the floor. "EMILY!" I screach as tears rolled down my face, I looked around me, but I couldn't see her at all.

"DONT LEAVE ME AGAIN!" I shout as I fall over, crying my eyes out, she was just there, her beautiful features, she looked real. "Please don't leave me.." I whimper loudly as I sobbed. Tucking myself into a ball.

I look across me and see a sharp piece of glass shining at me, it was sharp. "I miss you Emily." I whisper as I reach out for the glass. I roll my sleeve up, seeing my plain wrist. "I miss you Emily, so much." I whisper as I place the piece of glass to my wrist. Maybe this will calm me down, make me focus on something else. Maybe this isn't the best idea when pissed, but it's the only sensible idea I have at the moment. I pierce my skin and swipe it across my wrist, I immediately screen in pain as more tears and sobs fell from my body.

"Was this the pain you felt baby?" I ask as the blood pours out of my wrist, the stinging unbearable, I do one more cut and it hurt even more, I screamed again. Looking at the cuts.

"W..Was this the pain I put y-you through?"
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You get to see why Ethan started drinking now, I'm sorry, shitty chapter, but if you enjoyed it, please comment, otherwise I'll talk to you all later X

Love you all XxX
Sammie=3