Secrets |Sidemen FF|

.Chapter 1.

Vikks POV.

"You ready?" My mum says and I sigh, quickly putting my t shirt on. "One second!" I exclaim as I quickly comb my hair before running down stairs, "You not eating anything?" She asks and I shake my head. "I never eat in the mornings." I laugh and she just sighs before I put my shoes on, close the front door and head off too school.

I sighed as I really wanted to say, "I never eat" but I couldn't, I'd be telling a secret, a secret that only I know and I will keep. She has no clue about anything. Which is a bonus.

I walked into the school gates and I went straight to my locker, I sighed as I grabbed my books and shut my locker. I was about to walk when I got pushed into the locker. I sighed before continuing to walk to B block, to my first lesson, English.

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Tobi's POV
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Tears fell down my cheeks as the blood ribbons scattered down my arm, I stared at it in bliss as I made another cut. I don't think I can take this for much longer.
I sighed as I stood up and cleaned my wrist. I quickly put on a T shirt, my jumper and my hat on before brushing my teeth and leaving the house before my step dad could see me.

I quickly walked to school and entered the school gates. I smiled as I saw Sam standing there on the steps, waiting for me. "Hey." She says and I smile and kiss her cheek. "Hey you okay?" I ask her and she smiles and nods. "Great thanks, what bout you?" I ask and I shrug. "I'm fine thanks." I say and I go to my locker, luckily hers is right next to mine.

"What you got first?" I ask her and she sighs, "fucking French, what about you?" She asks and I sigh. "History" I say and she sighs, "Lucky" "is it though?" "Yeah, well, it's way better than French, anyway, I got to go, see ya, and don't get into any fights yeah?" She asks and I nod, "I'll try love." I give her a quick kiss before she heads off to The French department.

Today is going to be a long fucking day.

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Josh's POV
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I wake up feeling like shit, another bad day today I guess, I shake my head before getting up, my head aches so much and I don't know why. I look at my bedside table and immediately find out why.

"Shit how much did I take?" I whisper to myself, grabbing the three empty syringes that where on the bed side table before putting them in the bin. I quickly have a shower, get changed, and brush my teeth before checking on how much I have.

20grams, shit, I need to buy more soon. I quickly put the bag back behind my drawer and grab my bag, I look at my arms and see the little pricks that have scared from where I've enjected myself with the shit I call a 'reliever' I grab a jacket before heading off to school.

I walk in through the school gates and go straight to A block, where my English class was, no one was waiting for me, because I never let anyone come too close for me, Incase I slip up and tell them what I do most evenings. I can't tell them,

That's a secret for no one to ever know about.

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Ethan POV
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I take a small sip of the beer that was gripped in my hand, like if I dropped it my whole sanity will as well, and smash across the floor into tiny pieces, and to show me I'm truly broken. I don't want to admit that though, because I'm not.

I get up and take two paracetamol before showering, changing into new clothes and making sure I don't smell of any alcohol, I quickly grabbed my bag, seeing that I am pretty late and run out the door, before jogging into school.

I go to my locker and place my books I don't need for the day in there and the books I do need out and then going straight to my art lesson, wondering why the fuck I bother trying. My life is already consumed into a bottle that I take to try to make me happy again, but it only makes me more shit, more hurt.

More broken.

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Harrys POV.
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"Calm down yeah?" I whisper to myself as my hands still shake vigorously. My breathing a fast pace. "Just calm please." I whisper as I try and focus on the teddy bear that was on my wardrobe, and slowly, the anxiety evaporated from myself, into the stuffy air.

I get changed into my normal clothes before  brushing my teeth and heading straight to school, I run to school, as I know I'm already late, and see my beautiful girlfriend, Marie, sitting on the steps, "Come on, we are already late!" She says and grabs my hand, I smile at her before we head straight to drama.

If she knew about my anxiety attacks she would most probably leave me, like everyone else, because when they find that out about myself, they leave me, that's why I moved out of my parents house and moved into my own flat, so they didn't know, because I couldn't handle them leaving me.

And I would die if Marie Left me.

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JJs POV
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I run straight into the school gates and smile brightly, I'm in such a happy mood today, and I don't even know why, I just woke up in a great mood, at least it was better than yesterday, where I actually felt like killing myself, but that doesn't matter. That's yesterday, not today.

I run to my locker and quickly grab my books, I was about to close it when I heard someone shouting at this kid.

"Stop being a useless cunt and actually do something useful, instead of fucking being alive."

That flicked a switch.

I instantly ran straight towards the kid that said it and punched him straight in the eye, I started laying into him, but I don't know why, what happened, I was happy and the. Suddenly I'm so angry I could kill this dude.

What's happening to me?

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Simons POV.
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"Just get the fuck away from me!" I shout at Rebecca, who was laughing in a corner, "I can't leave you, I'm apart of you, and I really wish I fucking wasn't. You disgusting shit." She screams at me and I hold my ears. "You're not here! You're not fucking here." I whisper and she laughs, grabbing my arms.

"Boo"

I push her away from me and grab my bag, before running out of the house, running away from her, running away from her voice. But that never seems to happen, she is always here. I wipe my eyes before running all the way to school, I ran straight into school and the bell rang.

"Yo yo yo Simon calm down." I hear someone say and I look back and instantly stop. "Po.." "Just calm down, I'm right here. Tell me what happened." She says and I shake my head. "It's just my mum and dad, it'll be fine though." I whisper, trying to make it not suspicious, she can't know, I won't let her know.

"You can tell me anything, I am you're girlfriend love. But if you don't want to than that's completely fine." I just sigh and nod, before hugging her. "I love you, you know that right?" I whisper in her ear and she nods.

" I love you too, now come on, we gotta go to maths."
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This chapter was an introduction to what the guys 'Illnesses' are more than an actual chapter, but all boiled down to one, if you enjoyed this chapter please comment, otherwise I'll talk to you all later, X

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