This is not the end~ Fourth book in PLMI series

All I need.-40

*niall in that picture, like dang son.

-Louis's POV-
I sighed and walked into my flat that I shared with Harry, looking for my sweatshirt. I must've left it here......all I knew is I was fucking freezing. Sure, Zayn probably had an extra sweatshirt, but he was sleeping and I didn't feel like risking waking him up. It is, in fact now four in the morning after all.
I scratched my bare chest, as I didn't bother to put a freaking shirt on. Wow. I am a dip shit. No wonder I'm cold. It's the middle of the winter!! How the hell does Harry do it? He almost never has a shirt on when he sleeps. How do I know that.....? You don't even want to know....
​​​​​​ I jumped suddenly when I heard an ear piercing scream coming from my room. I frowned and rose my eyebrows as I crept over to the door, which was slightly cracked open. I pushed the door open slightly, looking inside and seeing Alexa crying in her sleep, yelling. I sighed and slipped into the room as she screamed again in her sleep, making me jump once more.
I walked over to the bed and gently put my hand on her shoulder, trying to shake her awake.
"Lex!!?" I called loudly, trying to wake her up. "Lex wake up!" I said louder and she jumped, snapping awake and smacking her head into mine. I winced and rubbed my head, mumbling an ow. She winced. Her breathing was heavy as tears streamed down her face in tracks, making her leftover makeup from yesterday run down with it. My heart broke and she widened her eyes, running a hand through her messy hair quickly.
"Lou.....?" She asked, rubbing her eyes to get the sleep out of them. The tears continued to fall down her face and I could barely make them out, as the only light in the room was coming through the door.
"Bad dream?" I asked and she nodded, her body still shaking.
"I'm s....sorry." she sobbed, covering her mouth suddenly.
"It's....fine love. Nothing to be sorry for." I whispered, but realized I was wrong. There is plenty to be sorry for. She knows it. As well as I do. But...I ignored that. Once the words were out of my mouth, her eyes softened and her pupils dilated as she looked up at me.
"S....sorry Louis." She mumbled. I sighed, running a hand through my hair and looking down at my girlfriend. Or....ex girlfriend...who was breaking right in front of me.
"Are you sure you're okay?" I asked. She nodded slowly, avoiding my gaze as I turned. But I stopped when I heard her whimper.
"Please don't leave." She whimpered and I turned around just as I reached the door. My hand was on the knob. Half of me wanted to leave. Forget her. Leave her to Zayn. She probably loves him anyways. Leave Louis!! Slam the door in her face!! Let her cry!! She hurt you!! She deserves the same!! A voice in my mind screamed at me. I frowned and looked down at the ground as another voice spoke in my mind. You love her. Look at her. She needs you more now than ever. Be there for her. You love her. Fight for her. Take her in your arms where she belongs. Be a man!! Suck it up!! Stop being an asshole!! My other half screamed. I looked back up at her greenish brownish eyes bloodshot and tears falling out of them from the dream. My heart melted and I did something I never thought I'd do.
I walked over the the bed and got in on my side, slipping underneath the warm covers. She immediately scooted closer to me, seeming hesitant to touch me. I didn't blame her. After all this shit....I thought I would explode.
I took the first step and stole myself, grabbing her waist gently and pulling her against my chest. She cried into my chest, her sobs getting louder and louder by the second.
"Lou.....is.....Lou....I..." she cried into my chest, clinging to my chest tightly. I gently sighed and stroked her hair slowly, trying to calm her slightly.
"It's okay love. It was nothing but a dream." I whispered in her ear, ignoring the loud whimpering she was doing into mine. Her warm, salty tears dripped from her eyelashes to my chest, making my eyes start to get misty as well. "Shh....it's okay....it was a dream. You're safe. You're okay..." I whispered, trying to get her to calm down once more. Her breathing slowed a bit, but she didn't stop crying, letting the tears fall onto me, washing away my madness at her and Zayn like a river. I bit back my tears and instead focused on the ceiling, staring up at the dark surface.
"Please....don't leave...m...me..." Alexa murmured into my chest, her body shaking violently as I tried to hold her together.
"Oh love. " I whispered, turning to bury my face in her hair as I let a few tears shed from my eyes. I cried silently into her hair, not making a sound as she sobbed quietly into my shoulder, her whole body shaking. I held her tightly to me, entangling our legs together and breathing in the soothing scent of her hair.
"Don't leave. Don't leave. Don't leave...don't....leave." Alexa stammered into my shoulder as I rubbed my hand up and down her spine soothingly.
"I won't." I whispered back, surprising myself. She froze and her body stopped shaking as she pulled back to look at me through the darkness. Her eyes looked into mine, trying to figure me out.
"God...I'm so sorry." She whispered, putting her hand over her face and wrapping her arms around herself, closing me off from touching her. My heart ached and dropped from the loss of contact with her and her hot, soft skin.
"I won't leave you." I said again, wondering if she heard me the first time. More tears fell out of her eyes as if she didn't believe me.
"P...promise...?" She asked, her voice still shaky and cracking from all the crying. I nodded and hugged her to me once again, pulling her into my tight embrace. She was so warm and I felt her fingers slide over my chest and up to my shoulders. My heart fluttered and I closed my eyes tightly, trying to wish these thoughts away.
"I promise." I whispered.
"Lou boo....I love you." She whispered against my chest, her words slurring together. Her warm breath tickled my skin and made me take a deep breath in to calm myself. I nodded and kissed her head gently, stroking her hair lovingly. I didn't answer her right away, waiting for her to drift off to sleep.
Her soft breathing slowed and she sighed, closing her eyes gently and drifting off to sleep. I felt her grasp my hand in hers underneath the blankets and intertwine our fingers. Her hands were cold and I tried to warm them with mine. I still continued to stroke her thick hair away from her face as I too, began to get tired. I forgot all about the sweatshirt and all about being cold.
"I love you too Lex......to infinity and back..." I whispered, kissing her forehead for longer than was probably necessary. I felt her hand underneath the blankets shift and I felt the little promise ring I had given her a year ago....more or less. I ran my fingers over the smooth, warm surface of the ring, feeling the infinity sign.
I slowly drifted off.....feeling the warmth envelope me in its trap. I gently moved my head to rest against Alexa's comfortably and fell asleep. I can't help it. I can't just....let this go. After everything we've been through? I love her too much to let her go.....