This is not the end~ Fourth book in PLMI series

Hate and breakdowns-48

A/n- I know what it's like you know.....to feel so happy...then to have it all come crashing down around you.

-Niall's POV-
"Niall Horan?" The nurse asked as Mackenzie and I sat in the waiting room. I was gripping her hand so tightly, I'm surprised she still has circulation in it.
I got up and Mackenzie followed me as I followed the nurse, turning corners and leading us to a hospital room where they would do the examination and stuff. Mackenzie winked at me as they weighed me and did the usual things like take my blood pressure, and all that stuff. I sat down in the chair in the doctors office and Mackenzie sat down in one next to me, bouncing her leg as we waited for the doctor to come.
​​​​​​ She looked up at me suddenly and unexpectedly put her hands on my neck, pulling my head forward and kissing me passionately on the mouth. I kissed back, confused as to what she was doing. I felt her press a bit harder, her hands pulling gently at the hair on the backside of my head near my neck.
I groaned as quietly as I could when she gently bit my lip, teasing me. I slowly ran my tongue along her lip, asking for permission to her mouth, but she denied. I groaned and tried again, to no avail. Mackenzie laughed into our kisses, and I took the opportunity to slip my tongue into her mouth, making her gasp and me laugh.
We kissed open mouthed for awhile, before she abruptly pulled away, her breathing heavy and her eyes shining.
"What was that?" I asked, mesmerized by her green eyes. She smiled, her eyes shiny and watery.
"A promise." She whispered, looking at the door. I grabbed her chin and moved her face so that she would look back at me.
"Huh?" I asked, confused.
"A promise. No matter what happens....I'll always love you and stay by you. Even in your hardest point. I won't leave again. Not this time.....You're stuck with me now." She whispered. I chuckled and nodded slowly, grabbing her hand in mine. She smiled up at me and I leaned forward to kiss her forehead gently, letting my lips linger until I heard talking outside the door. I moved back into my normal position. The doctor came through the door and sat down at his desk, picking up a folder off the desk and opening it. He looked up at us and smiled.
"Niall Horan?" He asked. I nodded and he smiled again, making me glance at Mackenzie. "We're going to need to do some tests...." the doctors trailed. I bit my lip and looked to Mackenzie. She smiled at me reassuringly and squeezed my hand.

-Mackenzie's POV-
I eventually had to leave, as they were going to do an MRI. I walked back to the waiting room and sighed. I sat down and looked around me. There wasn't much going on. It's a hospital...after all. There were all kinds of people in the waiting room. I was scared that I was going to get sick for a second, before I realized...I didn't care. I'm here for Niall. That's all there is to it. I promised him I'd stay and be here for him. And that's exactly what I'm going to do.
I watched the nurses bustle around behind the desk and sighed. This could take awhile. I took out my phone and pulled up Twitter, as I hadn't been on it for like....a year. I sighed as I scrolled through my long list of mentions, when I suddenly stopped on one, my eyes widening and my heartbeat quickening.

@Mack__attack @niall___official I am in the hospital and have lung cancer, like Niall. I am sure I'm going to die. My dying wish is..to meet the both of you. I'm at the children's hospital in London. Room 216. Please? -love...Alley

I frowned and looked at my hands. Hmmm...now I'm getting an idea. I walked up to the front desk and decided to ask the nurse.
"Hey ummm.....do you know how long it will take for Niall Horan's testing to be done?" I asked and she looked at her computer. She frowned and winced.
"Oh...a couple hours yet....at least..." she said sadly. I nodded and sighed.
"Can you do me a favor?" I asked and she smirked.
"Depends on what it is...." she trailed, looking at me suspiciously.
"If he gets done early, tell him that I went to go do something important....okay?" She nodded and smiled.
"Yes. Of course. Anything else?" She asked politely.
"Oh...umm....yeah.....where's the children's hospital at?" I asked. She smiled.
"You just go past the park a couple blocks, you'll see it." She said kindly. I smiled and nodded.
"Thank you so much." I said, smiling. She nodded and I turned, starting to walk out when she called me back.
"And.....ummm.....can I have your autograph?" She called I giggled and walked back up to the counter and scribbled out my name in my signature and handed it to her, blushing. It still weirds me out that people actually want to listen to my music.
"There you go love." I said as I turned and walked out the front doors. I sighed as I saw all the teenage girls and screaming fans. The hospital security had them somewhat pushed back, but not enough so that they didn't pull on my clothes annoyingly.
"MACKENZIE!! OH MY GOD I LOVE YOU!"
"MACKENZIE!! WHERE'S NIALL?!"
Fans shouted at me and paparazzi shoved their cameras in my face, blinding me and making me panic for a moment. I hate crowds. I get so claustrophobic all the time. But....I stopped suddenly when someone shouted something at me that was....very hurtful and dug right at my heart....right down to the core.
"You don't deserve Niall!! Everything went bad since you met him!! You're a cutter and an attention whore. Why don't you just go die, you bitch?!" A girl yelled in the crowd. My mouth went dry as I felt tears sting my eyes, threatening to spill out. I felt one drip as I turned, pushing the paps out of the way. The crowd had gotten unusually silent, everyone scared of my reaction.
"Who said that?" I demanded. The girls in the front were looking around, trying to figure out who did it. There were calls out saying. "I didn't. Not me" I swallowed as I met eyes with a girl, with very outgoing makeup and a smirk on her face as she glared at me. "Why are you here?" I spat as I walked up to her. She looked confused for a second, before she smiled with fake sweetness.
"Because I'm a fan. Of one direction. Bitch. Not you." She spat. Ouch. That hurt. I sighed and stood my ground, gritting my teeth in anger and thinking of Niall.
"You wanna know something? I don't care what you think. You will never get a chance with any of them anyways because....I'm not the bitch. You are. If you honestly can't watch your mouth, you shouldn't even come because I sure as hell know Niall would not appreciate this. Because I don't. Now I suggest you get out of here before we have more trouble." I spat, getting closer to her face. She smiled, sickeningly sweet and reached her hand out. And before I knew what was happening, slapped me across the face. The girls next to her gasped and the paps took pictures. My eyes widened and my hand flew up to my cheek.
My anger was pushed off the edge and my other hand flew up to slap her across the face, hard. "Have a great life." I whispered, turning on my heel and pushing through the crowd to Niall's car. I unlocked it and got in, slamming the door behind me angrily and locking it. I quickly shoved the keys in and started the car, backing out quickly and pulling out of that damn parking lot as fast I could. As soon as I was driving, away from all the people. The camera flashes. And...all the hate. I gently reached my hand up to my still stinging face and rubbed it. I've never been hit by a fan before....but...that girl...she wasn't a fan. I cursed loudly as tears started to stream down my face. I angrily brushed them away, but they kept coming, blurring my vision and making me drive a bit faster.
"Don't let them get to you." I heard Liam's voice ring in my head. But..I couldn't help it. "Theyre just jealous of you baby." I heard Niall's voice, trying to soothe me. But....it didn't. It only made things worse. I sobbed as I pulled into the drive to me, Liam, Niall and Britt's flat, parking the car and running inside. Liam and Britt were both on the couch in the living room. Liam was on his phone, on Twitter.......my heart dropped as he read it out loud with a worried voice.
It was already all over Twitter. That I was fighting with a fan. And...that I slapped her. They were making it out to be....all my fault.
Britt gasped when she saw me standing. I fell apart. I started sobbing, my body shaking and my knees weakening.
"Oh love." Liam said as he rushed to my side to support me. I cried harder, clinging to Liam's shirt, wanting my brother. Wanting Niall. Wanting my father. My mother even. Wanting Trey, the man he was before he was abusive. I wanted everyone back. But they were gone. All of them. Except Niall. And these boys. And my best friends. "Wheres Niall?" Liam whispered to Britt, which hugged me as well as I cried.
"Hospital..." I choked out, crying into Britt's shoulder.
"Alone?" Liam asked. I looked up, wiping my face and nodded, before realizing what I came back to do. I pulled out of their arms and ran to me and Niall's room, grabbing my guitar. I ran out of my room and walked to the front door, pulling off my other coat and putting on another one that wasn't ripped from the "fans".
"Mackenzie wait!!" Britt said quickly, running up to grab my arm before I could get out the door. I sighed and turned around, tears still drifting down my face. I let them drip from my cheek bone down to the floor. Liam came up to stand next to Britt and sighed, reaching out to brush the tears off my face. I closed my eyes tightly and wished the urges to go away. My thigh was stinging in anticipation already and I just needed to get the crap out of there.
"Where are you going?" Britt asked gently, holding my hand in hers in a comforting gesture.
"I...I have an......I...idea......I...got...to g..go..." I stammered, still crying.
"Kenz. I think you should stay here." Liam whispered. I shook my head quickly, thinking of Niall.
"I....." I started, but I heard the unmistakable sound of my ringtone and felt my phone buzzing in my pocket. I pulled it out quickly and saw that Niall was calling. I thought he was in testing.......
I clicked accept. "Hello?" I answered shakily. I heard Niall take a shaky breath and heard the sound of his crying. My heart immediately started pounding harder and my breathing stopped. "Baby? Niall. What's wrong?" I whimpered. Begging and silently pleading with him not to say it. Please God let it be anything but that.
​​​​​ "Sweetheart.....I...I...need you....to.come.....r..right now." Niall sobbed over the phone. My heart shattered in two and I nodded quickly as tears blurred my vision from this horrible, horrible day.
"I.....hang on baby....I'm...I'm coming." I stammered, trying to get my emotions and voice together. Niall hung up then, not even saying goodbye. I was insane by then. Oh my gosh. What's happening? I quickly ran out the door, throwing my guitar in the back quickly. Liam and Britt ran out behind me and I didn't protest when they jumped in the car too. I drove fast, practically speeding.
​​​​​​ "No....no, no, no, no..." I mumbled as I quickly pulled into the hospital and parked the car. It had begun to snow and rain, making the rain freeze and making the sidewalk slippery. I quickly jumped out and wanted to run, but it was too slippery to. So...I walked as quickly as possible. I finally got through the front doors, with Liam and Britt trailing behind me. The crowd had cleared up because of the snow, so that was a plus.
I ran straight up to the front desk and took a minute to catch my breath. "Where is my boyfriend....Niall Horan? He went in for testing a couple...." I started, but Liam tapped me on the shoulder and I turned, to see Niall, standing across the room, tears streaming down his face in long streaks. My heart broke in two. His hands shook as he clasped them together tightly. I ran to him and stopped in front of him, pulling him into my arms as we cried together. He didn't even have to tell me.
"Baby....what...what happened....." I asked, crying into his chest. He pulled back. His eyes were red rimmed and bloodshot. His face paler than usual. His oxygen tubes a stark contrast to his young face.
"It's......b..back......my cancer ......and....it...it spread....." he whispered. And then....I screamed.

A/n- DRAMMMAAAA. LOL. Have fun my lovelies. I hope you're having a wonderful summer. I'm actually surprised I finished this. Sooooo...much drama in this chapter. Maybe I'm not losing my touch after all......so...sorry for the cliffhanger and...love you all!! 😘😘