This is not the end~ Fourth book in PLMI series

Remember-78

A/n- Jump.

«One long month later.....»
-Liam's POV-
      "C'mon Mackenzie. You need to sleep. And eat....." I mumbled, watching as Mackenzie looked up at me. Her eyes were dark, tired, and sunken in, as if she hadn't slept for a lifetime. Niall had been steadily getting worse and worse as time went on and I think he was to the end of his rope. He had been sleeping a lot this past week and I overheard the nurses say he had a couple days at most. My heart was absolutely breaking into a million pieces as I looked down at Mackenzie.
        "Leave me alone..."Mackenzie mumbled, pushing Niall's hair back from his forehead and grabbing Niall's hand in hers.
        "Kenz.....come on. Let's go home. You haven't been home in a week. " I pointed out, looking at her disheveled state and messy bun that had been in since Tuesday...it was Saturday night.
       "I said....leave me be." Mackenzie growled, not even looking up at me.
       "I will not. Now. You need to go home and eat and sleep, only if it is only a little. Come on. All he's going to do is sleep...." I pointed out, looking at my friend.
        "I don't want to leave him." She mumbled. I sighed.
       "Alexa and Louis are right outside with Zayn, they'll keep an eye on him. Okay?" I asked gently. Mackenzie surprised me but finally nodded, reaching her arms out, as to be carried.  I chuckled with no humor and picked her up bridal style, walking out of the room with her.  She held firmly onto my neck and didn't say a word, instead remaining quietly in my arms. Britt followed me out to our car and got in the drivers seat. I put Mackenzie in the back like a child before getting in the passenger side myself.
       Britt drove in silence, reaching to grab my hand as she was, squeezing gently. I squeezed back and looked in the mirror to see Mackenzie, her knees pulled up to her chest tightly and her eyes downcast towards the floor as if a million thoughts were in her head.
       "You okay Kenz?" Britt asked, noticing my lingering eyes on the girl with brown hair. Mackenzie looked up in what looked like confusion and bewilderment, as if she had no idea what Britt was talking about. A sort of blank expression filled her face.
       She didn't answer, only looked back down, acting as if Britt had never said a thing. Britt looked at me in alarm, and I winced, scared for Mackenzie's well-being.
      Britt pulled in the driveway to her parent's house and we all got out of the car. Mackenzie seemed.....closed off....in her own world. I noticed Leo's rental car in the driveway and sighed. I didn't mind him, personally......it's just his sister was a little clingy. And I have absolutely no clue how Mackenzie would react to new people......sure....she's been living at Britt's house....well kind of, but I had taken it upon myself to distract her so she never got the chance to meet Mackenzie. I was only protecting her, Mackenzie's in such a fragile state and I don't think she can stand something like this.
Mackenzie was usually so nice to her fans, but I wasn't sure what she would do when she was in such a distressed state. Kelli definitely wasn't what you would call gentle either.
      As we got through the door, I saw Leo talking to Britt's mother at the kitchen table and his sister on the couch, on her computer.
       "Hi Liam!!" Kelli exclaimed, making me jump. I nodded politely to her when she gasped and ran to Mackenzie, hugging her tightly. Mackenzie didn't hug back, too startled to do so.
       "Kelli!" Leo scolded as Kelli pulled back from Mackenzie. Mackenzie was slightly taller than Kelli and looked down at her with a blank expression.
       "I can't believe I'm meeting you finally. I absolutely love your music." Kelli complimented Mackenzie. Mackenzie looked down at her in confusion.
        "Thanks. Nice to meet you." Mackenzie said, no expression on her face but sadness. I excused Mackenzie and I from the group and pulled her upstairs into one of the guest bedrooms and sat down on the bed with her.
       "You okay?" I whispered quietly, putting my hand over hers.  She bit her lip and looked away from me to the window before she got up, walking across the room and stopping at the old desk in the corner. Pulling open the drawer, she banged on it, once, twice, three times with her fist before something fell from the bottom of the drawer, to the floor. She picked it up and opened the envelope quickly, not acknowledging my presence in the room.
       Before I could stop her, she darted to the fireplace in the room and dumped it in the fire, whatever it was, it was gone now....
       "What was that?" I asked her, only, I didn't get an answer.
       "When did you have your first love Liam?"  Mackenzie asked quietly, looking out into space as if she were a million miles away.
         "I don't ...really know....." I replied, frowning. She nodded as she looked away and wrinkled something in her palm. Grabbing her hand I saw that she held a picture, one of her.....and oddly....Trey.
        "What's this?" I asked. She shook her head sadly.
        "Trey and me at prom. Before every thing went..........screwy." she whispered her face falling slightly.
        "You kept this?" I asked, confused at her behavior. She nodded, before taking it from me and throwing that in the fire as well.  I watched as the picture caught flame and shriveled up, eating her and Trey's happy faces before reducing it to nothing but ash.
         "I just want to die." Mackenzie mumbled quietly. My eyes widened and I shook my head, standing up to stand next to her before pulling her into a hug.
        "No. It will be okay. Yeah? Even if....Niall......" I choked on the words. Mackenzie didn't seem to hold anymore emotion, only shook her head violently and pulled her arm out of my grasp.
        "It won't be okay Liam. You don't....understand." she faintly whispered. I frowned, not understanding. Sure, we would all miss Niall, if......when...no...if he died....but I would most certainly look out for her if he died. She wouldn't be alone, if I could help it.
         "I do though....." I replied. She turned towards me her body shaking from anger before she spat into my face.
        "You do not understand Liam!! Don't you see!! I'm pregnant!!" She screamed hysterically, her tears welling up.  My breathing stopped for a couple seconds, so that I coughed and almost choked.
        "Oh...." I mumbled, feeling my own tear fall from my cheek. Niall. He'll....never see his child......something he's always wanted.......And he'll never see it happen......
        Mackenzie slipped her arms around my torso and collapsed into my chest. Not crying, just sniffling back her tears for my sake. "This sucks." I whispered. She nodded against my chest as I wrapped my arms around her. We stayed like that for a really long time, me crying for my best friend, who would never get to see his greatest wish.
        "I know. I know." She whispered before releasing me. I saw a stray tear fall down her cheek before she went into the bathroom. "I'm going to take a shower I guess." She said quietly. I nodded slowly, but came to kiss her hand before she shut the door. Leaning in, I whispered in her ear.
        "Don't do something you'll regret." I whispered. Her eyes flickered up to mine in wonder and guilt before flicking away again when she shut the door behind her and locked it.