Falling For You || Shawn Mendes

Chapter 57 - Still awkward?

Lily's  P.O.V.

I got out of the car, closing the door behind me. Kaylee slid down her window as both of them hovered over it.

"I guess we'll see you tomorrow evening. Don't stress out okay? You need to look beautiful on our prom night!" Connor said.

"Have your beauty sleep, early." Kaylee winked.

"Thanks guys. Goodnight." I smiled.

"Goodnight!" They both simultaneously said.

I waved one last time as they drove home.

I looked at my watch, God, it's already midnight.

I quickly headed to the front door, opening it gently, letting myself inside the house.

The house was dark and quiet. Probably because they all went to sleep already.

I closed the door, setting down my bag on the couch. I headed to the kitchen to get myself a glass of warm milk before I go to bed. Just as I was entering the kitchen, I bumped into someone making me jump and squeal in fear. I quickly turned on the lights.

"Shawn?" I said.

"Lily," He said. Well this is awkward.

"Why are you still awake?" I asked.

"I um, I had a bad um, dream." He stuttered. Lies.

"I know you're lying," I whispered to myself. But I guess I'm bad at whispering.

"Okay fine," he said.

"I just wanted to make sure you're here, before I go to bed. I can't sleep, knowing you're not home yet." He said, not making eye contact.

"Oh," I said. "Well, thanks for waiting. I'm home now. You should go to sleep."

He nodded silently as i went to grab my glass of milk. He was about to exit the kitchen when he suddenly stopped.

"Lily?" He said. I faced him.

"Shawn," I said.

He paused, as if he wanted to say something but nothing came out if his mouth. Instead he smiled, "goodnight."

I breathed deeply, before smiling slightly, "goodnight."

He then continued to walk out of the kitchen, as I sighed. 

It's harder than I think. Being in this situation with him.

I grabbed my glass of milk, then my bag on the couch, before heading upstairs to my room.

As I entered inside, I placed my glass on the coffee table beside my bed. I then walked into my bathroom, getting ready for a shower.

Shawn.

Shawn.

Shawn.

Why can't I get him off of my head?

Just stop, Lily. You're being ridiculous. He's moved on already. Get over him.

But what if I can't? What if I can't make myself move on. What if I won't be able to move on? This is so frustrating.

After minutes of thinking, I turned off the shower, letting myself dry in my towel.

I outed my jammies out of my closet, and combed my hair free from tangles.

As I climbed on my bed, all I had to do was sleep.

But I can't. He's still in my head. I sighed.

Get a grip, Lily! Tomorrow night's the most awaited prom of the school, I should be thinking about that not Shawn.

I went under the covers, hugging my pillow.

Even though I tend to ignore Shawn and everything, nothing works on me anymore. I know what I feel towards him and I know this feeling won't fade.

I sighed as I finally closed my eyes.

I'm sure of it.

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