Falling Up

water

Its kinda like being in water. The constant bobbing up and down as the waves carry you down stream is the only way I can really describe it to you.

For a moment, I am above water with the most stunning view of the world around me and all I can do is let the joy wash over me like rain.

But there are days when the skies are dark and my head dips below the surface to the dark and desolate silence where no one can accompany me.

I bob up and down as the stream carries me away from the present and into the future where im blind to all that may come.

And the panic sets in like a fog. Draped across the surface of my entire being and a suffocating weight presses down on me. It clouds my vision and I stumble around in the thick nothingness trying to desperately locate the light switch.

But I don't.

I just bob back up to the surface.