Falling Up

this week

This week has been shit.

Im pretty sure its been one of my worst weeks ever.

I've just been constantly upset. Like some demented fucking roller coaster that never pulls to a stop.

There have been good days. Days where I was all smiles and laughter and it was contagious to every one around me. Days where people looked at me and said "you seem also happier than you have been."

But most of this week has been the worst. I've just wanted everything to stop. For the metal cart of the coaster to either come to a halt or fly off its tracks so I could get a moment to breathe. I've just needed to breathe.

To take those deep breaths that could somehow shoo away this feeling of uncontrollable emotion that rolls through me like a storm.

I just want it to stop.

Im sorry, this was just depressing.