Drowning in you

•fortyfive•

Before the anger came the feeling of absolute confusion. Josh's heart was large and understanding, but it didn't understand why or how someone could cheat on Tyler and not regret it.

And then of course was the anger. Josh was a contained person, he didn't like the burning feeling judgmental eyes left on his skin. He couldn't stand being pitied. He hated when people tried to understand what you were going through. He didn't show emotion, but this was an exception.

Jenna's confused face appeared over the shoulder of the man. Her cold blue eyes registered shock, but their icy depths conveying disgust.
It was at this point that the man turned around to face josh. His sharp jaw cast dramatic shadows against the smooth dark skin of his lean body. He turned his perfectly sculpted face toward Jenna his eyes questioning silently.
"Who's this guy babe ?" As he spoke Jenna shot him a look trying to tell him to keep his mouth shut. Her face was one of a deer in the headlights, her emotions played vividly actress her strikingly beautiful features.
"Josh..." she trailed off, her lips unable to come up with the right thing to say.
"Is Tyler here?" She muttered her eyes skipping past Josh's petrified body to search the door way.
"No? Well then why are you here?" Jenna grumbled, her eyes flicking back toward the man curled against her body.
With those words Jenna had thrown at him josh finally lost control. Every last wall and block between what he felt and what came out of his mouth were obliterated in an instant.
"Jenna. " Josh's voice was shuddering with anger. It was hot and out of control.
"How could you. Do you realize what you've done?"
Jenna slowly untangled her limbs from the mysterious man and walked over to josh
" I've been alone for so long I've forgotten what it's like to love , josh. Do you know what that's like? No I guess you don't because you spend every waking minute with Tyler, or at least a man named Tyler, because the man I knew was different than this Tyler. The old Tyler cared, he would stay with me whenever he could, nothing would ever come between us. He hasn't treated me well, he should be ashamed!"
Josh felt scratchy choking burn of anger inside him. He reached his hand up and slapped Jenna.
"Jenna Joseph. Or should I say black? You have single handedly broken a mans mind. I don't think you realize the extent of what you have done. You know you're the only one Tyler ever talks about don't you? We'll sit down to eat and his first words will be "I bet Jenna would love this". His only fear was that he would suddenly lose you, and it seems he has now. Tyler's mind is stitched together with spiderwebs, he must never fall because if he does his life will fall with him and break apart. A human can only take so much, Jenna, and when he found you with this-" he paused flinging his arm in a gesture toward the stunned man on the couch, " -thing! You tore through the bandages I have so carefully wrapped him in. Not only did you betray the man that trusted you more than anything, you betrayed my trust. I was doubtful about you at first. Tyler came home happy from your first date and at first I though you wouldn't be good for him, I thought he needed to pull himself together before he pulled a person into his life. And then, with every date you went on I began to realize Tyler was glowing with a peaceful content happiness I'd never seen in him. And now look. Tyler could have anyone he wanted, but he chose you because you made him a better person, or at least he thought. Now you've ruined not only his trust but mine.
I have never yelled at anyone like this in my life Jenna, never felt this much anger, but the one thing I can't stand is when someone hurts for no reason, and you hurt him Jenna."

The room was stuffed full of thick silence that rang in Josh's ears when he closed his mouth. He stood eye to eye with Jenna, his chest rising and falling fast, his fists clenched.
Jenna's eyes were fixed on the floor, and she brought one hand up to touch the red mark from where josh had struck her.
"I don't understand..." she muttered.
"Well then I'll tell you," spat josh, " Tyler sat on a grey hotel carpet and swallowed enough pills to bring him to the edge of death. I found him clutching to the ledge of life. I found him, I was there and you weren't and you're his wife. He's in the hospital, he's been in a coma for two months Jenna. You didn't only break his heart, you broke the only thing keeping him tethered to living. Now do you understand Jenna? Tyler tried to kill himself."

Josh's mind was chaotic and he felt hot everywhere. His eyes were burning with hatred as they cut into the woman's face that was looking up at his. She opened her mouth but nothing came out.
Josh turned on his heel, then stalked out of the house dragging his hand roughly through his hair.

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Hellooo I'm in the last stretch of school so that means a ton of finals and annoying shit like that. I write when I can, but don't expect frequent updates.

In other happier news...

I GOT FUCKING TWENTY ONE PILOTS TICKETS!

I'm seeing them at a music festival in Washington in 5 days 4 hours 47 minutes and 17 seconds.

That's all, love you all for reading
-Samantha <3