My Hell

Sunday, June 4th

Hey, today was good. I have to say that. 

This morning I spent talking to a special friend of mine, his name is Tom. Tom is an amazing dude. Tom makes me laugh and when you talk to Tom, the conversation is never dull or awkward. Tom knows how to make someone's day special. 

You know what's weird? I've found that actually verbally talking feels better then typing. Texting is stupid. Typing makes me feel a bit more lonely then actually talking. Actually talking makes me feel like I'm not so alone. Talking is like a verbal hug. Its like voiced affection. Talking-- Calm, fun, normal, sweet, enjoyable talking, that is what helps with sanity. Talking makes me feel alive. 

The second thing I did today was watch the Netflix series Orange is the New Black. Its good. I'm on season 2 Episode 11.  I don't know why, but I'm more addicted to shows like Gossip Girl and Orange is the new Black, more so then I was hooked with Pretty Little Liars. 

After that, I dealt with someone who blackmailed me in the past, his name is Larry. Larry made promises to me and apologized. 

His promises were:

-He won't blackmail me again

-He won't hurt me again

-Not to abandon me again

-He'll earn my trust back and won't destroy it again

I'm anxious to see if he will keep these promises. At the moment I have trust issues, I can barely trust any of my friends. Part of my war is trusting people. 

Another thing I did was talk to my friends the GC, (Group chat), I'm in. It can get a little crazy in there. But I like crazy, I also like weird. What's life without a little bit of excitement? 

I also listened to music while drawing my thinking tree. I also posted some poems I wrote in another thing on wattpad, (If you're looking its called ​My Forest). 

I also thought about life. 

A few bad things did happen today, but I don't remember them, so they couldn't be too bad. 

Overall, my war was fairly simple today. 

Anyways, its getting late, and I still got to shower. Blog tomorrow. 

- Calli <3