Have you ever been super afraid of whats in the dark? Like abnormally afraid, worse then small child afraid. Like so scared that even when you see something in a lighted area when the rest of your house is dark, you think its going to kill you? It could be literally anything: the trash, a office chair, a phone, your sister's ceramic doll, an ice machine, etc. Welp. I'm terrified of inanimate objects at night, looking at them makes me want to cry. I feel like they are something else, like they want to kill me. I don't know why. I want to cry when I look at it. I turn on and off the light and it still scares the shit out of me, even with the light on. I run like hell is chasing me. I feel like i'm being attack and I swing at the air. I'm scared of stuff that isn't there. I'm going crazy, I swear.
I hate people who think I'm selfish for worrying and caring about myself. All I normally do is care for everyone else so why is it some big crime when I care about how my life is. You have no right to yell at me and call me selfish if when you're upset, I ask you whats wrong and you push me away. I gave you your chance to rant and you didn't say shit, so don't complain when I talk about shit that's happening in my life. I'm not selfish if I care about others. Like my one friend who's mom has cancer, I listened to them and I am there for them, SO DON'T TELL ME I'M FUCKING SELFISH AND THAT I ONLY CARE ABOUT MYSELF. My older sister almost went to back to the mental hospital and apparently i'm selfish for caring. JFC LARRY. You want to talk about shit?? THEN DO IT. STOP COMPLAINING THAT I'M FUCKING SELFISH AND JUST DO IT. Dumb ass.
Depression sucks ass.
Larry sucks cock.
My family is chaos.
And the people on the internet think slavery and child abuse is ok to joke about.
This world is becoming even worse. I hate everything and many people. And maybe I'm crazy, but so what if I'm fucking crazy??
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z48M_KnorBc
Well goodnight. War is a piece of shit. Sometimes I really want to give up.
-Calli </3
Also I need to just let this out, so here goes:
FUCK YOU, YOU DUMB SHIT. SCREW YOU. I FUCKING HATE YOU. FUCK YOU DEPRESSION. GO SCREW YOURSELF!
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My Hell
Non-FictionThis is the straight up story of my hell. Anything I say in here is the complete truth. I will not use real names for the sake of privacy, I guess you can kinda say this is a blog of some sort. Edited: This is my blog from the years 2017-2020. Come...
