My Hell

Sunday, November 12th

Yo guys,

Today I went to my bff's house for Shiva. Its a Jewish morning that lasts a week. Her grandpa died last Wednesday. I was glad I could be there for her. 

Funny but embarrassing story about what happened there. What happened was uh... I took a crap in her upstairs bathroom that uh..clogged the toilet and uh...I've never unclogged a toilet before, (because my parents are too busy to teach me simple life skills), so I had to tell my bff, and so she told me how and it didn't work for me, so she tried and it didn't work for her, so my bff tried flushing the toilet.. and it didn't work so she texted her mom saying she did it... "I crapped in the upstairs toilet so now its clogged." So her mom told her to shut the door and put the lid down. So she did. When her dad came home, he went to unclog the toilet and then all of a sudden, the ceiling where the light is in the kitchen, started leaking toilet water! My jaw dropped open...and I started laughing so hard, I was hitting my hand on the couch, toilet water, went all over the food, and I just sat there laughing and crying like an idiot, to make it worse I was already feeling awkward and like I didn't belong. I think my face started getting red too. Oh god...Damn...It was so bad. And her mom asked if I did it and I just sat there laughing and crying with my mouth permanently open unable to say anything. I was like 0_0 

Anyways, rn i'm listening to Pandora and I got an ad for Knox boarding school. So i've always had this weird fear/excitement about boarding schools. Reason being I literally have a dream school that i'll never get to go to. Plus I have a fear/excitement for going to a boarding school. Like being away from the chaos in my house, or starting new, being in a new place. That type of thing. I feel like it would be cool to go to a boarding school but I know that would never happen. I don't know thinking about doing some research on it and maybe decide if I want to go or not, like ask my parents about it and shit. I think it might be nice to start new, make new friends and have less chaos around me. Then maybe depression, anxiety, and stress will go down. Plus, another thing about boarding schools is the thought of leaving things behind. Maybe it would be something like my dream school. My dream school for sure is Broken arrow high school, but thats like states away. Just look at this website:

https://bahspulse.com/broken-arrow-high-school-2015-lip-dub/

Amaze af. 

I don't know why but I want like a movie type high school. Kind of cliche. Where everyone has their own little group where they fit in or everyone is just all around nice, you know? I'd love that. Anyways, the school is just some crazy idea in my head at the moment, probably won't even happen. 

Welp, I have a driver's theory written test tomorrow that I have to pass for a permit. So imma go study now. 

See y'all tell you if I pass,

~Calli <3