My Hell

January 18, 2018 (Thursday)

You guys really like my writing I guess. I keep getting requests left and right. The thing is, sometimes, I have uneventful days. Sometimes, I just don't have much to write about. The only thing I can think of today is this situation I got put into today.

Short and simple: 

-Martin said his ex wanted to apologize to me

-She made no effort

-She said I blocked her so she couldn't

-However I did not block her. I only block certain people who really piss me off.

This is how it went down: 

-She messaged him on Kongregate (For people who do not know what this is, it is a gaming website for people who are 13+) 

-Her (from Martin): "I would like to get into Angel to apologize to her too. I don't really have anything against her. I just let something pass me, and I shoot without aiming." 

Me: "if she wants to tell me something, she can send me a friend request."

Martin: "mhmm

im almost done with spanish then i can talk :3also she says you blocked her"

Me: "She's not blocked.

How to catch a liar.I never blocked her.Just unfriended. She's not blocked."

Martin: "okie

hold on one sec...i hope i dont regret this..."

**He adds me to a group**

Me: "Hm...

So instead of having her do it on her own, you make a group."

Martin: "okay just let it go?"

Me: "No thanks. There are key ingredients in life. And reasons why people do things."

Martin: "sigh okay" 

Me: "Last time she apologized to me, she did that whole thing in general.

I'm not a fucking idiot."

Martin: "i wasnt calling you one"

Me: "2misssweet - 01/05/2018 You know we have audit logs. Please try to keep drama to a minium. Shela - 01/05/2018 Wait? That was drama? 2misssweet - 01/05/2018 I don't like kicking or banning anyone, but I do what I have to. Shela - 01/05/2018 I thought it was just funny nonsense lol I'll go apologize then lol Oh. gg lol

This was before that entire thing in pie"

**Btw, the his ex's name shall be Shela**

Me (after I left when bull started to rise):
"Do not add me to groups where people come to "apologize". I do not like when people do that to me. I feel like it is bias, and it makes me feel trapped.

I do not apprecitate it.If she really wants to talk to me, like any normal person, can take the time to send me a friend request.Otherwise, it feels like you forced it on.Like you told her to.So leave it alone, if she really wants to, she can take it into her own terms."

Martin: "okay"

**A few minutes later**

Martin: ""** all the fake apologies and whatever bullshit you wanna believe about me. I'm saying sorry for making you feel like shit."

thats the last thing she wanted to say ;-;im done"

Me: "But she couldn't send a damn invite to say it herself.

You should be done, I don't want to deal with her. I told you that already."

Martin: "i am thats it no more"

Me: "To make an effort is proof that it was real.

But no effort was made, so its bull."

That entire thing made me uncomfortable. 

Btw, I've been thinking. Nikki likes to ask me a bunch of random questions and have me answer them. Since you guys want me to write a lot...well i'm basically asking if you have any questions that you want answered, if so leave them in the comments below. ^-^ They could be about anything. I don't care what they are. (Btw, I like deep thought provoking questions). I can answer them in blogs if you guys want. Anyways, just an idea. ^+^

Also, I was rethinking back when I created a discord server for my blog and then deleted it. I'm curious, if I recreated it, would people actually join? If you guys would like me to recreate a server, let me know in the comments. 

I honestly would love to talk to the people who go through the trouble of reading this crime scene. 

I know a lot of my friends read this. I'm glad for the reads.

OMG. I want to mention something. Or someone. So there is this youtuber known as Albertsstuff or Flamingo. He's the best youtuber in my opinion. If I could meet any famous person, I'd pick him. He's sooo funny. This may sound lame to some of you, but he plays roblox. He trolls a lot and has a lot of fans. I've been watching him since the beginning of freshman year. His voice is so squeaky, and I don't know why, but something, something about him is just so hilarious. NOTICE ME ALBERTOOOO

Oh...this other thing, on the not so light side of things, my nightmares have been getting worse. (I don't know if I have mentioned any yet *shrug*) Like, I have woken up with tears, or gritting my teeth. Things like watching people I care about die, or zombie apocalypse. They just seem so real...I don't think I've ever had nightmares this bad before. Like, they are so graphic, and some are so realistic, they are literally scary. I've never been this scared from nightmares before that I can remember. When I try to scream in them, no noise comes out, that in itself is terrifying. And they just keep getting worse...worse as in more terrifying. I might start keeping a dream journal so I can try to figure out if my mind is trying to tell me something subconsciously. 

So yea....Comment anything you want me to answer, or if you would like a discord server to hangout/talk with me or other people who read my blog. :)

~Calli 

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