My Hell

April 6th, 2018 (Friday)

Ever get the feeling that you just want to scream at the top of your lungs? Because life is so fucking shitty you can't fucking stand it? You just want it to end? That's me. I hate my life. But its not like I go in the fucking server and call attention to it 24/7. Or freaking repeat myself over and over to get everyone's attention. Serious shit should not be in a general chat, take it to fucking dms or #serious. Sorry I am ranting about discord shit. Its just that its really freaking stressing me out. Like literally. I want to log off discord completely for the weekend, but then I wouldn't be able to talk to some very important people like Max. Some people, really piss me off. 

On Wednesday, we had police at our school because some dumb kids threatened to shoot up the school. It was on the news and everything. Here is the link to an article about it:  https://amp.dailyrecord.com/amp/484726002

I'm literally have trouble these days. Its so hard to keep everything inside. I just want somethings to end. So fucking badly. And I don't want to remember my past. Ever. One of the people I thought was my friend brought up Larry. They threw it at me like it was nothing. Larry is a super freaking serious topic with me. He literally hurt me. Where is your fucking head? If you think what happened was nothing, then we can't be friends anymore, sorry not sorry. So that friendship ended. 

Steven still wants me to get back with him. Steven, I swear to God, he has a girl friend and wants to be in a poly relationship with me again, but hell no, never ever again. Fuck that shit, I'm out. 

Reese is back in my life. He has cancer again, I'm worried about him. 

@everyone As a reminder, please keep serious topics in dms or in #serious. That is where it goes. Do not talk about it in general. It creates a negative environment, and there is a channel for serious stuff so please use it. If you ignore this and still talk about serious topics in general, you will be warned and redirected to #serious. Serious topics include: Suicide, home issues, personal issues in general, issues any associated members, issues with friends. If you have any questions or concerns feel free to slide into the dms of ___ staff

There isn't actually, I put a blank there cause no need to know name of the server. :3

I love post hardcore. <3 all of the mother freaking post hardcore. 

I will update Wake Me Up When Tomorrow Ends soon. But also, I'd like to know what you all think of it so far.

Anyways, getting tired and I wanna talk in server more, so see ya'll for now.

~Calli <3